Sam explains his weekend and his posting plans (***1/2)
Alright, I got back to SF from Davis inexcusably late. Actually, I dunno if it's inexcusable. My 42" 1080p HDTV is....is simply a reason to live by itself, really. :p All of Josh's Xbox360 games have basically become several times better just because you can like, fucking count the number of eyelashes a character may have now! Well fucking worth the paycheck and then some I used up for it...>_>
My dad got a whole bunch of pills and tips on how he can quit smoking to improve his health, after his appointment to the doc. To be honest, I can think a lot about this, but I won't. I always like to dwell on things; I hate waiting for something to happen, good or bad. The building apprehension or anxiousness I get from these sorta things can reach pretty deep inside of me. But I won't let it happen for this. Maybe I'm just super fucking relieved that for the first time since I can remember my dad has volunteered to go check up on his health, rather than be forced through an ailment. Maybe it's because the doctor could communicate with him in Chinese. Maybe it's because of the crazy amount of documentation my dad brought back with him, on what he has to do to stop smoking... I'm still scared he won't follow through though. It's such a disgusting cycle, to give us a glimmer of hope before the family just goes into stagnation again. I need to think of what I can do to make things change this time. Any fears I have are at least mostly relieved when I think of how much more I feel I can change things with my family now. I can get involved with them, I won't just stand by and wait for my older sister to talk the family through tough situations. She communicates with our parents maybe every couple weeks or so, while I'm still living with them for the next two weeks. I have to make sure we can change things this time. I've grown up barely attached to my parents emotionally...it's only when I'm about to leave them again for school that I realize how much we need each other. I won't let that time go to waste.
...Alright, now that I got that out of my way, back to being an asshole-ish dick of a douchebag :D IN THE NEXT FEW DAYS, I WILL DISCUSS THE TWO R's:
1. Racism; what makes something racist, and what doesn't, when racial humor is/is not funny, and other wholesome related topics, such as the cultures behind people of color. I think this would only be offensive to those who break out in tears at the sight of a slur without the slightest hint of context. Obviously I don't condone racism or other bigotry; to me it's never justified. I just want to explore why people continue to do and/or think racist things, and how they actually perceive certain race-related topics. I really really really hope I can write a bunch on this without being boring. Hopefully no one will see it as knee-jerk reactions too; I only get pissed off at worthwhile targets. May my words soon help you identify them.
2. Religion. It's funny/distressing that whatever I write on this topic may be the most offensive. Of course I think said offense would be felt mostly out of misunderstanding; other times it'll just be from me being a crass jerk :)...Actually, no. Recent events have made me question my approach to this. I'm going to be my least negative-for-the-sake-of-being-negative when discussing this. I want to be taken seriously, so that people's minds may actually be changed, whether it be yours or mine. Could be good AgASA material too...if anything profound comes up on this, I'll be sure to bring it up to the club. Still, I have the aching suspicion that this will make some people uncomfortable. Gimme a chance plz!!1
...Of course tonight I will discuss neither. The above stuff has compelled me to shut my brain down for the rest of the night. If I actually want to accomplish my goal of writing substantial topics for once, I'll need rest tonight. It just turned 8:21 at the moment. Here's hoping I'll be in bed at around 10:30, at the latest. Pray for me, whitey :p
My dad got a whole bunch of pills and tips on how he can quit smoking to improve his health, after his appointment to the doc. To be honest, I can think a lot about this, but I won't. I always like to dwell on things; I hate waiting for something to happen, good or bad. The building apprehension or anxiousness I get from these sorta things can reach pretty deep inside of me. But I won't let it happen for this. Maybe I'm just super fucking relieved that for the first time since I can remember my dad has volunteered to go check up on his health, rather than be forced through an ailment. Maybe it's because the doctor could communicate with him in Chinese. Maybe it's because of the crazy amount of documentation my dad brought back with him, on what he has to do to stop smoking... I'm still scared he won't follow through though. It's such a disgusting cycle, to give us a glimmer of hope before the family just goes into stagnation again. I need to think of what I can do to make things change this time. Any fears I have are at least mostly relieved when I think of how much more I feel I can change things with my family now. I can get involved with them, I won't just stand by and wait for my older sister to talk the family through tough situations. She communicates with our parents maybe every couple weeks or so, while I'm still living with them for the next two weeks. I have to make sure we can change things this time. I've grown up barely attached to my parents emotionally...it's only when I'm about to leave them again for school that I realize how much we need each other. I won't let that time go to waste.
...Alright, now that I got that out of my way, back to being an asshole-ish dick of a douchebag :D IN THE NEXT FEW DAYS, I WILL DISCUSS THE TWO R's:
1. Racism; what makes something racist, and what doesn't, when racial humor is/is not funny, and other wholesome related topics, such as the cultures behind people of color. I think this would only be offensive to those who break out in tears at the sight of a slur without the slightest hint of context. Obviously I don't condone racism or other bigotry; to me it's never justified. I just want to explore why people continue to do and/or think racist things, and how they actually perceive certain race-related topics. I really really really hope I can write a bunch on this without being boring. Hopefully no one will see it as knee-jerk reactions too; I only get pissed off at worthwhile targets. May my words soon help you identify them.
2. Religion. It's funny/distressing that whatever I write on this topic may be the most offensive. Of course I think said offense would be felt mostly out of misunderstanding; other times it'll just be from me being a crass jerk :)...Actually, no. Recent events have made me question my approach to this. I'm going to be my least negative-for-the-sake-of-being-negative when discussing this. I want to be taken seriously, so that people's minds may actually be changed, whether it be yours or mine. Could be good AgASA material too...if anything profound comes up on this, I'll be sure to bring it up to the club. Still, I have the aching suspicion that this will make some people uncomfortable. Gimme a chance plz!!1
...Of course tonight I will discuss neither. The above stuff has compelled me to shut my brain down for the rest of the night. If I actually want to accomplish my goal of writing substantial topics for once, I'll need rest tonight. It just turned 8:21 at the moment. Here's hoping I'll be in bed at around 10:30, at the latest. Pray for me, whitey :p