Is Fate Always This Cruel?
Pairing : Kyusung, Yewon, Slight!Kisung
Genre : drama, romance
Rating : PG-13
warning : un-betaed
Summary : why the fate is so cruel to him? Did he do something wrong? He only wanted to be with him, to have him, to claim him as his.
A/N notes : the italic words is 'Kyuhyun's thought"
They were childhood friend. Kyuhyun and Yesung. They were best friends up until their high school. But somehow Kyu’s feeling has started to change. He began develop a different feeling towards his precious best friend. Yes, Cho Kyuhyun was falling in love with Kim Jongwoon.
Kyuhyun hesitated. He was afraid if he confesses he’ll ruin their friendship. But he couldn’t bare it any longer. Holding that kind of feeling killed Kyuhyun inside.
When Kyuhyun got the courage to told Yesung, he found the worst scene ever. Kibum confessed to the owner of his heart. And just to make it worst, if it still could, Yesung accepted it gladly.
Kyuhyun couldn’t take it anymore. He transferred to another school, didn't even have the heart to watch the couple. He knew he was childish. But nothing could save his poor heart anymore.
Yesung asked Kyuhyun why he moved. But he gave him a fake reason. Telling him that his father has bussiness in another city. He never wanted to admit his real reason.
But unfortunately, fate was cruel. Kyuhyun always got the couple update from his beloved best friend. It broke his heart even more, scattered it into tiny little pieces. He felt like drowned in stupid misery.
Until someday, in a very beautiful afternoon...
Kyuhyun opened his door and found a broke-down person who held his heart tightly. The view just clutched his heart badly. Yesung came with a tear-stricken face, eyes swollen, and sobbing uncontrollably. Yesung broke up from Kibum. Okay, that was something new. He couldn't handle the sadness, he needed Kyuhyun so he came to his house.
“It’s okay, Yesungie... I’m here. Everything is gonna be fine... trust me...” he hugged Yesung tightly, buried his face in Yesung’s feathery hair.
God, how I missed this scent. This addictive scent. Coffee with a little vanilla scent.
“Kyu, you are my best friend ever. I know when I’m in this kind of condition I can counting on you” Yesung buried his face in Kyuhyun’s shoulder.
“Of course, you can count on me. You know I always be here, waiting for you” Kyuhyun smiled bitterly.
My poor little heart, bear with it please....
After lots of comforting words, Yesung has settled himself down. They sat in Kyuhyun’s living room.
“Kyu, we’ll graduate soon. Let's go to the same university. It’s hard to have a different school with you. I feel so lonely without you around me...”
Not as lonely as I am...
“I’m not asking you to go to the same department with me but I just ask if we could go to the same university. Is it too much to ask? Am I selfish? I know I am...” Yesung looked down to his hands.
Yes, you are... you are selfishly holding my heart and squish it like nothing happen...
“No, you're not... Yeah, we will. We’ll go to the same university.” He caressed Yesung’s cheek.
“Thank you, Kyu. You are my best friend ever.” Yesung smiled brightly like an innocent.
Best friend huh? Yet you smile that blinding smile of yours. I guess I really don’t deserve this beautiful angel in front of me.
They really did enter the same university. Seoul University.
In the 2nd semester, Kyuhyun gathered all of his courage to confess. Kyuhyun knew he couldn’t wait any longer. His beautiful angel got so many admirers. He wouldn’t risk it again. Not this time. So he decided that today is his moment. He called Yesung.
“Yesung, meet me @the photography club room. I have something to tell you”
“Okay...” Yesung said cheerfully.
Okay, now or never, I hope this time will have a great ending for me
On the way to the photography club room, in the hallway, Yesung felt his wrist being grabbed by someone. He turned around. It was his classmate, Choi Siwon.
“Yesung, I’m sorry but can I talk to you for a moment?”
“Kyu needs me so better say it right now, I don't have much time”
Kyuhyun ran through the hallway, but he stopped abruptly. From afar, he could see Siwon holding Yesung wrist tightly. Kyuhyun sensed something wrong.
It can't be, right? No, not this time. I don't wanna repeat that scene again.
When Kyuhyun was about to shout Yesung's name, Siwon blurted out his feeling loud enough for Kyuhyun ears.
“Yesung, I love you... You took away the special place in my heart. This heart of mine, I would be so honored to have you as the owner. So Yesung, please, be my boyfriend...”
Both Kyuhyun and Yesung frozen, shocked by Siwon’s confession.
What the hell is going on in here?! No!!! Not again, please Yesung say no!
Yesung who got shocked finally back to reality. After took a few breaths he said some words.
“Siwon, I like you, I really do. But well... I...”
Huh? He really like Siwon??? Why he never told me?
“What, is there someone you love right now? Is it Kyuhyun?
Kyuhyun dumbfounded. Yesung stood there not answering Siwon’s question.
Can I have a little hope? Is it wrong to give my heart a little ease?
After felt like ages, Yesung opened his mouth.
“No, he is my best friend. The most precious one. I don't have that kind of feeling toward him.”
Kyuhyun lifted his right hand, clutched his chest.
You already prepared for his answer. No need for surprised. No, don't break down in here... You have to get out from here. Out from this heart-crushing scene...
“So what is the problem?”
“I like you Siwon but... I don't love you...”
“That's the only problem? Then why don't we try it first? I’ll make you love me. Trust me, I’m worth it”
Yesung blushed lightly and just nodded.
“So can I count that as a yes?”
Yesung blushed even more and nodded again. Siwon embraced him in a bone-crushing hug.
“You don't even know how much I love you, Yesung. I’ll make you happy, I promise.”
There, Kyuhyun saw this scene again... It was painfully heart-breaking scene for him. He cursed himself for stood there like an idiot without doing anything to save his poor little heart and just watched the scene. He couldn’t take it anymore. Kyuhyun left that happy couple alone.
Kyuhyun, you stupid... now it’s so obvious why you don’t deserve that beautiful man...
Suddenly, Yesung remembered about his appointment with Kyuhyun. He made a quick run to the photography club room but he found no one in there. He called his best friend.
Kyuhyun has already in the parking lot. His phone was ringing. He watched the caller ID.
So after your happy moment ended you finally remember me, huh?
With a trembling hand he picked up the phone.
“yoboseoyo...”
“Kyu, I’m sorry. I have something to do. So I’m kinda late. But right now I’m already @photography club room. Where are you, Kyu?”
Kyuhyun braced himself. He tried really hard not to cry at the moment. He cleared his troat to cover his shaking voice.
“A-actually Yesung, there isn't something important that I need to talk. I’m sorry, let's just cancel our meeting. I don't feel good right now. I’m going home first, okay?” A single tear has rolled down his right cheek.
“Kyu, what's wrong? Are you sick? I’ll accompany you, okay?”
How can my heart bear it if I see your beautiful face right now?
“No, that's no need. I just feel tired. I’ll go to sleep early so don't call me for tonight, okay. See you tomorrow.” Kyuhyun hang up the phone.
Yesung felt something wrong with Kyuhyun's voice. But then he just ignored it.
Kyuhyun broke down in his car. Kyuhyun thought why the fate is so cruel to him. Did he do something wrong? Did he make an unforgiveable sin so he has to take this kind of punishment? He only wanted to be with Yesung, to have him, to claim him as his. For once.
Is it too much? I’m only asking that....
He took out his phone and touched the screen. It flashed his wallpaper showing a smiling Yesung holding his turtle plushie, Kyu’s birthday gift.
You are blindingly beautiful, my little angel. I love you so painfully much but why our fate never met? I always watching you, guarding you, and the worse is.... I always waiting for you. But you never know it, aren’t you? God, I miss you so damn much...
Kyuhyun caressed the wallpaper of his. He missed him. He cried so hard.
I always waiting for you since a very long time ago. Waiting my chance to confess, to burst out this indescribable feeling in my heart. But I guess we are never meant to each other, right? There’s always someone in your heart, my chance will always comes to zero. So I think this is it, nothing could ever brighten up my day anymore...
He kissed Yesung picture
I love you, forever and longer... I wish I’ll meet you... in the next life...
He drove his car out of the parking lot in a very dangerous speed...
A/N notes: okay, so this is my 1st FF ever. it's bad i know >_< don't bash me, plz~ criticize or comments would be so loved!!!
this fanfic actually based on a song, it's from indonesian singer. I listened that song for the 1st time and suddenly the urge to write just flowed out like that. The song told us about one-sided love, yes, like kyu has. it's really sad, i almost cried while I'm listening to it. And I played that song over and over again *in repeat track* while i wrote this FF. I'm really sorry for making kyu this miserable *bow* minhae~