Lost without an answer....
Have you ever wanted something or someone so bad but there was something else that was keeping you from having it?
Tonite I broke down at church....whether it was a positve or negative I am not quite sure yet.
I question whether I want to start school of leaders and go to Winter Camp
I feel so out of place
I don't know what to make of the feelings that I have for you
I don't want to ruin our friendship but yet at the same time you are always on my mind
I try to keep myself busy but something always bring me back to you
I want and expect so much cause I feel so strongly for you but I have no clue as to how you feel and I hide my emotions (well try to anywho)
As the last song ends and the last tear has fallen I look back to see the mess I have made of myself
Looking forward to what is to come of myself I am still in question
I just need and answer to all of the many questions I have
Knowing God is with me I sometimes feel that I have to qestion him and I shouldn't
There are so many thoughts running through my head
yet all I want is to be with you
I'm not obsessed
Not in love
But desperatly trying to let go of the feelings I have for you that are so strong yet I am not willing to let go
I have prayed and prayed about
And now I question wheather this is God telling me that I am supposed to have these feelings
lost with you
lost with school
lost with friends
lost with my walk
so for now I pray
I pray that you will come around
I pray that things will starighten out with me
I pray that everything will be ok
I pray that I can be with you
I pray that I can be witout you
I pray that my heart will be restored yet again
Life can be so hard at times
There is so much to deal with that I get so caught up that when I fall, I fall and hit the ground hard.
I truely believe that he is my frist love
And if it is then things will get better
At the alter tonite I said a prayer for the both of us.
That we can be given another chance
Another chance at life, to be back on the right path
I know that things will get better
I just need to give it time
With my eyes full of tears i can start again knowing that God has forgiven me and will answer all of my questions.....
Tonite I broke down at church....whether it was a positve or negative I am not quite sure yet.
I question whether I want to start school of leaders and go to Winter Camp
I feel so out of place
I don't know what to make of the feelings that I have for you
I don't want to ruin our friendship but yet at the same time you are always on my mind
I try to keep myself busy but something always bring me back to you
I want and expect so much cause I feel so strongly for you but I have no clue as to how you feel and I hide my emotions (well try to anywho)
As the last song ends and the last tear has fallen I look back to see the mess I have made of myself
Looking forward to what is to come of myself I am still in question
I just need and answer to all of the many questions I have
Knowing God is with me I sometimes feel that I have to qestion him and I shouldn't
There are so many thoughts running through my head
yet all I want is to be with you
I'm not obsessed
Not in love
But desperatly trying to let go of the feelings I have for you that are so strong yet I am not willing to let go
I have prayed and prayed about
And now I question wheather this is God telling me that I am supposed to have these feelings
lost with you
lost with school
lost with friends
lost with my walk
so for now I pray
I pray that you will come around
I pray that things will starighten out with me
I pray that everything will be ok
I pray that I can be with you
I pray that I can be witout you
I pray that my heart will be restored yet again
Life can be so hard at times
There is so much to deal with that I get so caught up that when I fall, I fall and hit the ground hard.
I truely believe that he is my frist love
And if it is then things will get better
At the alter tonite I said a prayer for the both of us.
That we can be given another chance
Another chance at life, to be back on the right path
I know that things will get better
I just need to give it time
With my eyes full of tears i can start again knowing that God has forgiven me and will answer all of my questions.....