God Damn It!
Dorian, why do you have to think all old-timey?! Writing you is driving me insane! I find myself having to continually overhaul my entire register because, no matter what, I keep sliding back into casual fic-speak instead of formal, educated, turn of the century, Dorian-fucking-Gray/Oscar-Wilde-speak. Seriously, writing every single sentence from Dorian's perspective is so much more labor intensive than just, say, having Harry listen to Dorian speak. I mean, even that was difficult and time consuming, but it's nothing like an entire 6,000 word section of nothing but Dorian being loquaciously bitter.
Hmmph! I don't even know why I'm working so hard if, when I complete this section, I'll be left with only my own thoughts about it. I know it's not appealing to you guys, but it's frustration on top of frustration, and now I'm left trudging on because I want to prove something to myself and create something original and good and meaningful for once.
I don't know. I just feel like ripping my hair out over this story because I'm not able to write it more efficiently and just, you know, better. I feel like this is the story I've been working towards for the past four years (and, yes, my anniversary here was back on the fourth of September), and if I don't get it down. . .
I wish I were a better person and a better writer. I want to to do this so badly, and I know. . . I know I'm failing.
*deep sigh*
So what's up with you guys? Anything new and happy? *puts on smiley face*
Hmmph! I don't even know why I'm working so hard if, when I complete this section, I'll be left with only my own thoughts about it. I know it's not appealing to you guys, but it's frustration on top of frustration, and now I'm left trudging on because I want to prove something to myself and create something original and good and meaningful for once.
I don't know. I just feel like ripping my hair out over this story because I'm not able to write it more efficiently and just, you know, better. I feel like this is the story I've been working towards for the past four years (and, yes, my anniversary here was back on the fourth of September), and if I don't get it down. . .
I wish I were a better person and a better writer. I want to to do this so badly, and I know. . . I know I'm failing.
*deep sigh*
So what's up with you guys? Anything new and happy? *puts on smiley face*