fevers and money
My middle one has a fever. Poor guy it seems like he gets fevers and feeling bad times more than the other ones though it was M that I took to the doctor. I do hope he doesn't throw up in bed though. That is a hard one. Or stay up all night. F. I just want him to feel better. C'mon S, sweet boy.
Today my in home childcare woman started. She's nice, it's strange. I was with her as was L and G the housemate and little girl that live with us. I was trying to get a fix on the whole experience. She's going to watch the kids while I make sales calls and work on TT but I haven't made any sales yet and the business is going into debt. I always think of the line The Full Monty and I can never quite remember it. It's when Gazzer is talking to his ex-wife in the sewing factory and he want to borrow money from her something like "you got to speculate to accumulate" . That's what we're doing right now. The belief, the faith, the nearly proven fact that the money will be flowing barring national economic collapse.
I had the hardest day with E. God, she was driving me absolutely F'ing bananas. 4 years old and you'd think she was trained in diabolical identity destruction. I mean I'm in my blaming zone. Blaming. Fuck that word. I was mad at N tonight because I hit my primal scream when M just would not stop arching his back for me to walk around with him SOME MORE and SOME MORE when I just needed to sit the fuck down. I sacred everyone in the house. Poor kids, mommy's gone bye bye inside herself. She'll be back. "I don't want her to come back".
We're borrowing a bunch of money and then we have to borrow some more and then we are going to pay it all back.
Today my in home childcare woman started. She's nice, it's strange. I was with her as was L and G the housemate and little girl that live with us. I was trying to get a fix on the whole experience. She's going to watch the kids while I make sales calls and work on TT but I haven't made any sales yet and the business is going into debt. I always think of the line The Full Monty and I can never quite remember it. It's when Gazzer is talking to his ex-wife in the sewing factory and he want to borrow money from her something like "you got to speculate to accumulate" . That's what we're doing right now. The belief, the faith, the nearly proven fact that the money will be flowing barring national economic collapse.
I had the hardest day with E. God, she was driving me absolutely F'ing bananas. 4 years old and you'd think she was trained in diabolical identity destruction. I mean I'm in my blaming zone. Blaming. Fuck that word. I was mad at N tonight because I hit my primal scream when M just would not stop arching his back for me to walk around with him SOME MORE and SOME MORE when I just needed to sit the fuck down. I sacred everyone in the house. Poor kids, mommy's gone bye bye inside herself. She'll be back. "I don't want her to come back".
We're borrowing a bunch of money and then we have to borrow some more and then we are going to pay it all back.