chocolate and coconut banana cream pie
E, I got your card!! That was so cool. The Tubs closed down! I know, it's that amazing. But, they are opening a relocated one in NE soonish. It'd be really fun to go sometime, some blue moon. I'll keep the coupon for posterity.
N and I went out for dessert at Papa Haydn. This really decadent place in Sellwood. I had some pie that puts the eye balls in pie. Lately though I've been doing that thing where I think at night as I fall asleep or wake up in the middle of the sleeping and find that I'm plotting my new thin regime. Carrots and trampoline jumping, sit ups and jogging? Even as I'm doing it I'm like, honey, you've been having these nighttime fantasies about the new you this since you were 12, I know it must give you some bit of comfort or something because it ain't about actually doing these things you're plotting, it's just about the space out. When I have these "I'm going to change my ways/self" thoughts at night I usually eat a lot the next day. I didn't think about it last night, I don't think, because I was up most of it with M trying to keep my shit together while rolling around on the couch with a 1 year old crawling on my face. I did call him a fucker. Talk about a confession. There's a reason people keep things to themselves. Sorry M, sorry world.
Having a shaved head puts me out in the world more. Which means I'm aware of my fat more.
I also got some decaf AND a glass of dessert wine from Hungary that I used to drink sometimes when I was in Hungary. It was wine from Tokai. A region in Hungary and where they make this kick ass wine and I got so drunk on it many times, but tonight I spent 9$ on a itty bitty glass that didn't even approach a buzz but gave me flashbacks and tasted really good. The pie was a big slice. It wasn't a gourmet serving it was like a cafe serving only very very classily made.
E started preschool and loved it! She didn't want me to leave the room and was crying and everything. I brought M because I thought he might make me less attractive to her because she's kind of used to me having to deal with him. I used you M. S wanted to come and E wanted him to come and I wished I could have let them be together, but I see how it might be ok for them to be apart for a couple hours a few times a week. I just worked with her not wanting to be there and I didn't waiver with it. I decided I'd take that approach because I know she loves to do stuff but she gets emotional and it hold her back and she wants to do the thing she didn't stick with later on. I really don't know if I did the right thing by being kind tough about it and not super huggy with her. I stayed firm about it that she was going to stay, got her into some pipe things that stick together, all the time my heart's beating in my throat and I'm chattering to some grown up in the classroom like I know what the fuck I'm doing. She bought it and seemed to relax and I left after hugging her one more time which just got her a little sad again, but I wanted to. I was ready to leave her there, but I wasn't too. She goes again tomorrow and I'm hoping for a little more ease. It was hard to hold up faith for her. Luckily it's a very sweet space and the teacher is genuinely experienced and kind and there's great outdoor and indoor play areas.
I have a few theatres that I'm optimistic about lately. There's great reasons for them to go with TT I've done a lot of information sharing about it now we'll let the fairies to their part. Go fairies.
N and I went out for dessert at Papa Haydn. This really decadent place in Sellwood. I had some pie that puts the eye balls in pie. Lately though I've been doing that thing where I think at night as I fall asleep or wake up in the middle of the sleeping and find that I'm plotting my new thin regime. Carrots and trampoline jumping, sit ups and jogging? Even as I'm doing it I'm like, honey, you've been having these nighttime fantasies about the new you this since you were 12, I know it must give you some bit of comfort or something because it ain't about actually doing these things you're plotting, it's just about the space out. When I have these "I'm going to change my ways/self" thoughts at night I usually eat a lot the next day. I didn't think about it last night, I don't think, because I was up most of it with M trying to keep my shit together while rolling around on the couch with a 1 year old crawling on my face. I did call him a fucker. Talk about a confession. There's a reason people keep things to themselves. Sorry M, sorry world.
Having a shaved head puts me out in the world more. Which means I'm aware of my fat more.
I also got some decaf AND a glass of dessert wine from Hungary that I used to drink sometimes when I was in Hungary. It was wine from Tokai. A region in Hungary and where they make this kick ass wine and I got so drunk on it many times, but tonight I spent 9$ on a itty bitty glass that didn't even approach a buzz but gave me flashbacks and tasted really good. The pie was a big slice. It wasn't a gourmet serving it was like a cafe serving only very very classily made.
E started preschool and loved it! She didn't want me to leave the room and was crying and everything. I brought M because I thought he might make me less attractive to her because she's kind of used to me having to deal with him. I used you M. S wanted to come and E wanted him to come and I wished I could have let them be together, but I see how it might be ok for them to be apart for a couple hours a few times a week. I just worked with her not wanting to be there and I didn't waiver with it. I decided I'd take that approach because I know she loves to do stuff but she gets emotional and it hold her back and she wants to do the thing she didn't stick with later on. I really don't know if I did the right thing by being kind tough about it and not super huggy with her. I stayed firm about it that she was going to stay, got her into some pipe things that stick together, all the time my heart's beating in my throat and I'm chattering to some grown up in the classroom like I know what the fuck I'm doing. She bought it and seemed to relax and I left after hugging her one more time which just got her a little sad again, but I wanted to. I was ready to leave her there, but I wasn't too. She goes again tomorrow and I'm hoping for a little more ease. It was hard to hold up faith for her. Luckily it's a very sweet space and the teacher is genuinely experienced and kind and there's great outdoor and indoor play areas.
I have a few theatres that I'm optimistic about lately. There's great reasons for them to go with TT I've done a lot of information sharing about it now we'll let the fairies to their part. Go fairies.