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This weekend completly sucked ass. I worked Saturday and that was it. i guess Carey and Robert aren't my friends anymore. I knew deep down that they were really being my friends but I just never wanted to admit it to myself. But now I have. It really tore me up though. They were the only close friends I had. Now I feel like I have nobody at all. They were too caught up with their own to think about me. I never did that with them. i was the best friend they could ever have and I know it and so do they. They just weren't there for me like friends should be. I'm just tired of being a good person for people and getting nothing in return. It's like everything I do is a wasted effort. My emotions are so screwed up right now. I don't know how I feel about anything. I feel really weird. I can't explain it really, I just feel really weird. I want things to be like they used to be. Back when I was actually happy and enjoyed life. I dunno whats happend to me lately. This isn't me. I want the old Justin back. Some company would be nice too. Just somebody to spend time with and talk to. SOmebody who will actually understand.