And the end begins...
I submitted my letter of resignation today to the executive director indicating that my last day as faculty and receptionist would be Friday, June 20th. I don't think she was in so it will be interesting to see if there's a reaction from her.
It feels a little strange to be giving my notice not just weeks but month in advance. On the other hand, I want Settlement to start looking into a replacement for bass faculty as soon as they can. There's no reason to hold up the process and possibly gum a bunch of things up.
I also told my director at the college so that she could get a search started there. Next step is to start telling my students. That will be an interesting experience.
I'm... I'm in an interesting mental and emotional space - one that seems to keep changing every other minute. I admit there's still part of me that's wondering if I really *am* doing the right thing. Or maybe just the best thing. I... similar words, big difference.
My heart is saying yes most of the time. Maybe I've just ingrained Peter in to my brain and such (yes, Sylvia. Obsess much?) but he... already feels like part of my life.
This may not work out. I acknowledge and accept this. (Or at least I think I do.) I don't feel like I'm dependent upon him or need him. But I do love him and hope that our time together will be amazing - both good and bad. Somehow I think it will be.
Musically I'm also in a weird place. I'm acknowledging my musical burnout: the teaching, the writing, the performing, the scrambling, the stress, the tearing myself apart, the... well a bunch of things. I'm definitely not over it all - I can't really imagine a life without music. But I am feeling a certain indifference.
I'm hoping Austin helps change this. I'm really hoping that a different scene will help revitalize my spirits - bring me back some energy. That's a good chunk of my reason to move. Even if it's also a convenient excuse to get closer to Peter.
On the other hand I've also been trying to get a bunch of stuff finished. I've got some of the new songs in progress - "Drowning" most specifically. But I've also been picking up a few older tunes that I lost in the hard drive crashes of '06 and some of the tunes I'd started before I got the new computer.
More on that later. For now it's just ... another way to overload myself I guess. LOL
So much to do. So little time... Haven't practiced anything in days outside of time spent recording. Wish I had so much more to show for it!
It feels a little strange to be giving my notice not just weeks but month in advance. On the other hand, I want Settlement to start looking into a replacement for bass faculty as soon as they can. There's no reason to hold up the process and possibly gum a bunch of things up.
I also told my director at the college so that she could get a search started there. Next step is to start telling my students. That will be an interesting experience.
I'm... I'm in an interesting mental and emotional space - one that seems to keep changing every other minute. I admit there's still part of me that's wondering if I really *am* doing the right thing. Or maybe just the best thing. I... similar words, big difference.
My heart is saying yes most of the time. Maybe I've just ingrained Peter in to my brain and such (yes, Sylvia. Obsess much?) but he... already feels like part of my life.
This may not work out. I acknowledge and accept this. (Or at least I think I do.) I don't feel like I'm dependent upon him or need him. But I do love him and hope that our time together will be amazing - both good and bad. Somehow I think it will be.
Musically I'm also in a weird place. I'm acknowledging my musical burnout: the teaching, the writing, the performing, the scrambling, the stress, the tearing myself apart, the... well a bunch of things. I'm definitely not over it all - I can't really imagine a life without music. But I am feeling a certain indifference.
I'm hoping Austin helps change this. I'm really hoping that a different scene will help revitalize my spirits - bring me back some energy. That's a good chunk of my reason to move. Even if it's also a convenient excuse to get closer to Peter.
On the other hand I've also been trying to get a bunch of stuff finished. I've got some of the new songs in progress - "Drowning" most specifically. But I've also been picking up a few older tunes that I lost in the hard drive crashes of '06 and some of the tunes I'd started before I got the new computer.
More on that later. For now it's just ... another way to overload myself I guess. LOL
So much to do. So little time... Haven't practiced anything in days outside of time spent recording. Wish I had so much more to show for it!