Some Raise. I Fall.

[redlightrevery]

I went ahead and bought me a new pedal at
guitar center the other day. Boss Ph-3.
its pretty awesome, along with the DD-5.


Im sitting now. Im feeling now. I havent
expressed myself in words for months.
I havent been myself. I use to be a writter.
I use to write with tears, blood, whatever
i felt. Now i keep it in. i cant do it anymore,
i need to keep searching. Philosophy ran dry on
me for a while. Same dead words, in different
phrases. free verse, train of thought, relaps,
apathy, paradox, blah blah blah. I need answers,
to questions un asked. I feel worn down. Broken.
its contagious, really. I dont sleep at night.
Night is not for the stars, or the moon, or
for the darkness. Night is for me, it always comes.
SO i can sit and think, and pray that tomorrow night
ill be free and clear, and not smuthered with unending
thoughts of ending it all.


...love, I feel alone.
i dont need girls. i dont need friends
I lost myself at the park. I need my soul.
i need God.
IIIIIII, ME ME ME ME. Its always about Me
isnt it? Im sorry.
break my thoughts.
i will invent.