meh..
Do I expect to change the past I hold inside
With all the words I say repeating over in my mind
Some things you can't erase, no matter how hard you try
An exit to escape is all there is left to find
Close my eyes, let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
Well we can say Steph has officially lost her mind. Yup i've gone crazy. But it's okay i'll soon snap out of it...we hope. I'm just not sure of anything anymore, what I want, where I want to be. If it was just possible to go back to the begining, a new slate for me to start over and do everything the right way. The way things would happen in a movie. But I guess I just have to get over the fact that this is reality, not Hollywood, and face that nothing could or will ever be like that. I don't know if it's that i set my expectations to a certain level and then I can't meet them, or if it's just that I don't know what my expectations are. I just need some time to sort things out. And then maybe everything will be perfect again.
On a different note, I went to the Metuchen Y today to get a job application. It's just like our Woodbridge Rec Center, but I know no one that works there, and that's exactly what I want. Meeting new people, and learning new things is what I need right now, and if I am lucky enough to get the job, I think it will be a great new begining for me.
With all the words I say repeating over in my mind
Some things you can't erase, no matter how hard you try
An exit to escape is all there is left to find
Close my eyes, let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
Well we can say Steph has officially lost her mind. Yup i've gone crazy. But it's okay i'll soon snap out of it...we hope. I'm just not sure of anything anymore, what I want, where I want to be. If it was just possible to go back to the begining, a new slate for me to start over and do everything the right way. The way things would happen in a movie. But I guess I just have to get over the fact that this is reality, not Hollywood, and face that nothing could or will ever be like that. I don't know if it's that i set my expectations to a certain level and then I can't meet them, or if it's just that I don't know what my expectations are. I just need some time to sort things out. And then maybe everything will be perfect again.
On a different note, I went to the Metuchen Y today to get a job application. It's just like our Woodbridge Rec Center, but I know no one that works there, and that's exactly what I want. Meeting new people, and learning new things is what I need right now, and if I am lucky enough to get the job, I think it will be a great new begining for me.