(no subject)
I need to leave
I'm a million miles below
Not getting reception
I can't hear a word you say
My bones protrude
through mounds of my flesh
This fall has destroyed me
Wishin' for some death
A legion of legends
that describe why we're here
I don't buy a single one
I do not believe anything at all
So keep your salvation
for all the good it does you
You're just as much of a mess
as the devil you condemn
None of this does matter
but it boils my blood anyway
because of all the scars
childhood imprinted on my soul
So with a bite of bitterness
and while high on contempt
I waste all my breath
just to put you in your place
And we both know
that you will not remain there
This power struggle makes
fools of us all
I want to let go
I need to say goodbye
I need to make a life
before I blow these brains away
I simply cannot count
the extent of the damage
all the people that I loved
that have forsaken me
And I know if you ask them
who has forsaken who
they'd be the ones to tell you
that I was the one to turn
Regardless of that
this pain is so real
My attempts to bury it
just further conceal me
These words never do suffice
nor barely scratch the surface
but these words are all I've got
in this purgatory space
At this rate that I'm going
these problems will compound
until I cannot breathe
and until my blood stops flowing
When that day comes
and it could come tomorrow
just know that when I'm gone
I won't be in torment anymore
Maybe that's not what you believe
Maybe you think I'll burn in hell
and that what I endure today
is just a warm-up round
But I don't care what you believe
I'm already in hell
A sea of literal fire
wouldn't be worse than what I feel
So do not mourn me
Your grieving would be selfish
Let go of your attachment
Let go of your need for control
I'm a million miles below
Not getting reception
I can't hear a word you say
My bones protrude
through mounds of my flesh
This fall has destroyed me
Wishin' for some death
A legion of legends
that describe why we're here
I don't buy a single one
I do not believe anything at all
So keep your salvation
for all the good it does you
You're just as much of a mess
as the devil you condemn
None of this does matter
but it boils my blood anyway
because of all the scars
childhood imprinted on my soul
So with a bite of bitterness
and while high on contempt
I waste all my breath
just to put you in your place
And we both know
that you will not remain there
This power struggle makes
fools of us all
I want to let go
I need to say goodbye
I need to make a life
before I blow these brains away
I simply cannot count
the extent of the damage
all the people that I loved
that have forsaken me
And I know if you ask them
who has forsaken who
they'd be the ones to tell you
that I was the one to turn
Regardless of that
this pain is so real
My attempts to bury it
just further conceal me
These words never do suffice
nor barely scratch the surface
but these words are all I've got
in this purgatory space
At this rate that I'm going
these problems will compound
until I cannot breathe
and until my blood stops flowing
When that day comes
and it could come tomorrow
just know that when I'm gone
I won't be in torment anymore
Maybe that's not what you believe
Maybe you think I'll burn in hell
and that what I endure today
is just a warm-up round
But I don't care what you believe
I'm already in hell
A sea of literal fire
wouldn't be worse than what I feel
So do not mourn me
Your grieving would be selfish
Let go of your attachment
Let go of your need for control