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i haven't wrote in this thing in forever.
Lately, i've been really confused about a lot. I tried sitting down and thinking about why it happens but i can' find a reason,but im sure there are reasons.
My brothers doing really good , i miss him a lot and just want him to get better more than anything.Im glad he's starting to learn responsibility.I've like someone for over a year now , well i think it's more than like, but i don't know about him sometimes.I can't believe a lot that comes out of him mouth even though i try real hard to. My dad is driving me crazy and i want nothing but to get out of here,but that can't happen for another year and a half. I miss tons of people and i've been in so much trouble lately i haven't been able to go out , but things are dying down so thats good. Yesterday was a really bad day , headache, got accused of something that isn't going on and tons of homework.
Fuck school , i hate it , but im trying.I feel nothing goes right for me anymore , maybe i deserve it , maybe i don't. i guess time will only tell. Sain's not coming this summer and that just ruins everything , when im with her things are so much easier and im wayyyy happier.I've cut down on drinking and i feel good about it , it's something thats suppose to be fun and i kind of took the fun out of it how i was drinking. well im done for now. i love Brandie & Satin & Aaron.
Lately, i've been really confused about a lot. I tried sitting down and thinking about why it happens but i can' find a reason,but im sure there are reasons.
My brothers doing really good , i miss him a lot and just want him to get better more than anything.Im glad he's starting to learn responsibility.I've like someone for over a year now , well i think it's more than like, but i don't know about him sometimes.I can't believe a lot that comes out of him mouth even though i try real hard to. My dad is driving me crazy and i want nothing but to get out of here,but that can't happen for another year and a half. I miss tons of people and i've been in so much trouble lately i haven't been able to go out , but things are dying down so thats good. Yesterday was a really bad day , headache, got accused of something that isn't going on and tons of homework.
Fuck school , i hate it , but im trying.I feel nothing goes right for me anymore , maybe i deserve it , maybe i don't. i guess time will only tell. Sain's not coming this summer and that just ruins everything , when im with her things are so much easier and im wayyyy happier.I've cut down on drinking and i feel good about it , it's something thats suppose to be fun and i kind of took the fun out of it how i was drinking. well im done for now. i love Brandie & Satin & Aaron.