So yeah...
My parents are dissapointed in me. Why do you ask? Because I'm pregnant. I'm sure most of you already know, but I do have lots of news. First, Dale and I were engaged before this happened, so that's a good thing. We found out about a week ago. We're happy, but I'm just worried. My parents know now, and my mom hung up on me tonight. I told her about two days ago. She just told my dad tonight, so I guess she got upset all over again. It really upset me, she said that her and my dad were really dissapointed in me, but what's new? They were dissapointed in me when I left to be with Dale. The only two dissapointing things I've done so far and they make me feel like shit. It makes me cry and stress out because I was the one that was supposed to end up different than my family. The rest of them never went to college, some of them dropped out of high school, some had children when they were 15, some are in prison for drugs, some are in prison for stealing. Now that my parents are dissapointed in me, I feel the need to prove them wrong. I've always wanted to not end up like them ever since I can remember. They think that because a child comes into the picture, that all my dreams and hopes go down the drain. If anything, I want the best life for my child, so therefore, I'll make a bigger effort to stay in college and finish.
Yes, shit happens in life, things get a lil out of order. Marriage is supposed to come first and then a family. What if you don't believe in marriage? Like Keeley? Will people still be dissapointed in her because she has a child out of wedlock? Probably not if she has the kid when she's older. I understand that I'm young, but what do my parents expect me to do? Have an abortion? I asked my mom that. She got upset and hung up on me. My family raised me Baptist ever since I was born, there's no way in hell I'd abort a child. I made this decision, now I must live with it. A child is always a blessing, life is a blessing, but suddenly it's confusing when the mother is 18 years old. It's an extremely horrible feeling to feel like nothing but a dissapointment to your family. Especially if you're close to them. I'm going to have this baby, Dale is going to be with me through everything, we're getting married after the baby is born, we are moving back before it's born, I will stay in school and become more stable, I will follow through with everything I wanted before this happened. This is NOT a problem. A child is NEVER a problem, it's a gift, a blessing, something that was meant to happen. Everything DOES happen for a reason. I do believe in fate, fate by God. His plan just includes me having a baby now, not later. Say what you will, but that's what I will continue to hold onto.
/END OF RANT.
So, we've already thought of names. If it's a boy, his name will be Hayden (I picked that one out) John (one of Dale's middle names that came from his mom's father) Odis (my long passed away grandfather on my dad's side) and Gregory.
Hayden John Odis Gregory
If it's a girl, her name will be Cadence (Dale picked it out) Desiree (Dale's mom's middle name) Ann (mine and my mom's middle name) Gregory.
Cadence Desiree Ann Gregory
I'm due at the end of November. That's what my calculations have gotten me to. My first prenatal visit is on April 24th. They'll draw my blood, make me piss, ask a BAZILLION questions, check my uterus (to determine how old the baby is) and the whole "internal" examination. ICK. Been taking my prenatal vitamins, and I'm on a diet. I'm reading the book "What to Expect When You're Expecting." If I gain to much weight during the pregnancy, I probably won't be able to get rid of it. So I have to eat SO much shit during the day so the baby gets what it needs. It's a lot of healthy stuff, so it's okay. I'm supposed to gain a lil weight, just not to much to fast. I also have to keep track of my weight week by week. Dale and I already started our own Baby Registries at Babies R Us and Target. They're all done and waiting to be bought. Hehe, jk. No really. ;-)
Today Dale and I spent the whole day together. We went to the mall and got to walk puppies from the pet store. We got a chocolate lab to walk and he used Dale's arm to chew on, LOL. Then Dale bought some more clothes and we ate dinner at Chevy's, it was good. We watched Ice Age tonight, so funny. Some people came into my job last night and bought a shit load of food and they said they're sending it to a lot of the troops out in Kuwait that aren't getting mail. I thought that was the sweetest thing ever, they looked really really rich. I hope Matt's doing okay...and Nat. And everyone else...
I know I probably forgot something to put into this box, but ohwell.
Yes, shit happens in life, things get a lil out of order. Marriage is supposed to come first and then a family. What if you don't believe in marriage? Like Keeley? Will people still be dissapointed in her because she has a child out of wedlock? Probably not if she has the kid when she's older. I understand that I'm young, but what do my parents expect me to do? Have an abortion? I asked my mom that. She got upset and hung up on me. My family raised me Baptist ever since I was born, there's no way in hell I'd abort a child. I made this decision, now I must live with it. A child is always a blessing, life is a blessing, but suddenly it's confusing when the mother is 18 years old. It's an extremely horrible feeling to feel like nothing but a dissapointment to your family. Especially if you're close to them. I'm going to have this baby, Dale is going to be with me through everything, we're getting married after the baby is born, we are moving back before it's born, I will stay in school and become more stable, I will follow through with everything I wanted before this happened. This is NOT a problem. A child is NEVER a problem, it's a gift, a blessing, something that was meant to happen. Everything DOES happen for a reason. I do believe in fate, fate by God. His plan just includes me having a baby now, not later. Say what you will, but that's what I will continue to hold onto.
/END OF RANT.
So, we've already thought of names. If it's a boy, his name will be Hayden (I picked that one out) John (one of Dale's middle names that came from his mom's father) Odis (my long passed away grandfather on my dad's side) and Gregory.
Hayden John Odis Gregory
If it's a girl, her name will be Cadence (Dale picked it out) Desiree (Dale's mom's middle name) Ann (mine and my mom's middle name) Gregory.
Cadence Desiree Ann Gregory
I'm due at the end of November. That's what my calculations have gotten me to. My first prenatal visit is on April 24th. They'll draw my blood, make me piss, ask a BAZILLION questions, check my uterus (to determine how old the baby is) and the whole "internal" examination. ICK. Been taking my prenatal vitamins, and I'm on a diet. I'm reading the book "What to Expect When You're Expecting." If I gain to much weight during the pregnancy, I probably won't be able to get rid of it. So I have to eat SO much shit during the day so the baby gets what it needs. It's a lot of healthy stuff, so it's okay. I'm supposed to gain a lil weight, just not to much to fast. I also have to keep track of my weight week by week. Dale and I already started our own Baby Registries at Babies R Us and Target. They're all done and waiting to be bought. Hehe, jk. No really. ;-)
Today Dale and I spent the whole day together. We went to the mall and got to walk puppies from the pet store. We got a chocolate lab to walk and he used Dale's arm to chew on, LOL. Then Dale bought some more clothes and we ate dinner at Chevy's, it was good. We watched Ice Age tonight, so funny. Some people came into my job last night and bought a shit load of food and they said they're sending it to a lot of the troops out in Kuwait that aren't getting mail. I thought that was the sweetest thing ever, they looked really really rich. I hope Matt's doing okay...and Nat. And everyone else...
I know I probably forgot something to put into this box, but ohwell.