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I had a dream about my Poppy the other night. During the dream I knew he had passed away but I was able to see, touch and talk to him! I had asked a preist walking down the street if he could see my Poppy standing behind the car LOL And he said "No!" and looked at me like I was crazy! Then Poppy walked over to me and I was hugging and crying LOL I'm sure I looked like your typical loon on the streets of Inglewood haha..
But it was amazing! I wish I could see him again.. I never knew it could still hurt this much after 8, almost 9, years! I loved him so much! ANd I just wish I had one more moment with him to tell him how much I adore and love him! :-( He was such a handsome man and SO loving and giving and he didn't care what people thought of him! He always told it like it was and I admire that in anybody! I just wish I was old enough to appreciate everything he'd ever done for me and to appreciate his love for me!
I'm making pinto beans and I started crying cause I haven't had his pinto beans in SO long! And the last time I tried making them taste like his, they didn't turn out right and that was 8 years ago!
Who thought pinto beans could bring out such strong emotions! Lets hope today he's guiding me so I don't have a total emotional breakdown! haha.
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But it was amazing! I wish I could see him again.. I never knew it could still hurt this much after 8, almost 9, years! I loved him so much! ANd I just wish I had one more moment with him to tell him how much I adore and love him! :-( He was such a handsome man and SO loving and giving and he didn't care what people thought of him! He always told it like it was and I admire that in anybody! I just wish I was old enough to appreciate everything he'd ever done for me and to appreciate his love for me!
I'm making pinto beans and I started crying cause I haven't had his pinto beans in SO long! And the last time I tried making them taste like his, they didn't turn out right and that was 8 years ago!
Who thought pinto beans could bring out such strong emotions! Lets hope today he's guiding me so I don't have a total emotional breakdown! haha.
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