[DDD | 043 | Text] Reflections
[Locked to Self]
I don't know why I'm writing this. No one is going to see this but me. No one is ever going to read this. It's just random thoughts and rambling. This is stupid. Why am I even writing this down? I should be happy - I am happy. I'm perfectly happy. Life is good, for once. I don't have to worry about the world ending. I'm not piloting anymore. Well, that's not a good thing. I should be piloting. I ought to be piloting; it's what I spend my whole life training for. Now it's all gone.
But there's someone who actually wants to be with me. Who isn't going to leave me alone, like everyone else.
Do I really want that? I shouldn't need help! I shouldn't want someone to be close to me like that! I hate being weak! I should be able to live by myself! But I hate being alone, too.So which one do I hate more?
And then there's that weird stuff I had to do - I still do them, what am I talking about? I'm keeping my Persona in check. I don't know what this stuff does to me. I don't know what it's actually doing.
Even with all that, I should be happy. I ought to be.
So why do I feel so hollow?
This is stupid. Why did I even bother writing this? I feel useless. Everything I worked for is gone.
I don't know why I'm writing this. No one is going to see this but me. No one is ever going to read this. It's just random thoughts and rambling. This is stupid. Why am I even writing this down? I should be happy - I am happy. I'm perfectly happy. Life is good, for once. I don't have to worry about the world ending. I'm not piloting anymore. Well, that's not a good thing. I should be piloting. I ought to be piloting; it's what I spend my whole life training for. Now it's all gone.
But there's someone who actually wants to be with me. Who isn't going to leave me alone, like everyone else.
Do I really want that? I shouldn't need help! I shouldn't want someone to be close to me like that! I hate being weak! I should be able to live by myself! But I hate being alone, too.So which one do I hate more?
And then there's that weird stuff I had to do - I still do them, what am I talking about? I'm keeping my Persona in check. I don't know what this stuff does to me. I don't know what it's actually doing.
Even with all that, I should be happy. I ought to be.
So why do I feel so hollow?
This is stupid. Why did I even bother writing this? I feel useless. Everything I worked for is gone.