Stress makes me ill...
I've been so stressed lately. There are so many things going on and I just can't handle them all at once. Between work and things at home and with friends, I just don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I feel like living in my bed the rest of my life...
Work is gay as hell and to top it off they wanted me to become a manager!?!? I don't think so! There is no way in hell I would EVER become a manger there. It would just mean more stress and I can't have it. Although it was nice of them to consider me:) Makes me look good I guess. lol. But yeah, I don't even think they get benefits and that's something I need ASAP! My mom is going to talk to Jill tomorrow morning when she drops the kids off and see if they are hiring where she works. I would make so much more money too and that's something I need desperately! But my health is my main concern. I have been getting headaches left and right and I know it's because of my tumor. I haven't had my medicine for at least over a year now:( Who knows how big it is now...All I know is that I need money/medicine/new job ASAP! Maybe then I will be on the right track:/
My mom is having a hard time as well. Can't go into details, but I feel so bad for her and there is nothing I can do for her. I feel terrible and I want to help her so bad. I don't know what to do. We are both struggling hardcore right now and it sucks major ass! They always say things have to get worse before they can get better, but I just pray it gets better before something bad happens...
My friends are supporting me the best they can with what they know. I can't even tell them everything that is going on. But nevertheless they are there and I can't thank them enough. I love you guys more than you will ever know:)
Now I am off to bed because ALAS! I have a headache and I have to work early tomorrow. I love my life:/
Oh and P.S. So much for starting off a good year...
Work is gay as hell and to top it off they wanted me to become a manager!?!? I don't think so! There is no way in hell I would EVER become a manger there. It would just mean more stress and I can't have it. Although it was nice of them to consider me:) Makes me look good I guess. lol. But yeah, I don't even think they get benefits and that's something I need ASAP! My mom is going to talk to Jill tomorrow morning when she drops the kids off and see if they are hiring where she works. I would make so much more money too and that's something I need desperately! But my health is my main concern. I have been getting headaches left and right and I know it's because of my tumor. I haven't had my medicine for at least over a year now:( Who knows how big it is now...All I know is that I need money/medicine/new job ASAP! Maybe then I will be on the right track:/
My mom is having a hard time as well. Can't go into details, but I feel so bad for her and there is nothing I can do for her. I feel terrible and I want to help her so bad. I don't know what to do. We are both struggling hardcore right now and it sucks major ass! They always say things have to get worse before they can get better, but I just pray it gets better before something bad happens...
My friends are supporting me the best they can with what they know. I can't even tell them everything that is going on. But nevertheless they are there and I can't thank them enough. I love you guys more than you will ever know:)
Now I am off to bed because ALAS! I have a headache and I have to work early tomorrow. I love my life:/
Oh and P.S. So much for starting off a good year...