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So I havnt updated in this forever and when I did it was way to depression, but now I think I give a happy update. The past few weeks I have felt so intune with myself, having profound realizations, and expanding as a person because I now realize a little more whom I really am. This has been made possible by a few different factors. The freedom of my mind comes from the ability for me to seek out who I am without worrying about hurting anyone with what I might say or do. Its like im once again to start growing again, like a bionsi tree that is sudden able to grow again. Second, this has alot to do with my close friends. I love you guys. Emily has been the best friend anyone could ask for. Shes always there for me when I need advise or help on things that are bothering me, shes able to do things with me that I want to do and theres nothing holding back communication between us, and us being able to reach new epiphonies every weekend for a month or so now. Judy, you are such a cool person and I hope the delta squad has alot more political power, if ya know what I mean. Colleen your amazin and a great friend. You have helped me get past fun hurtles that have been hurting me. And to the rest you all own and are so special to me in one way or another. Third, my good friend paul has been ready to pull me outa the gutter, i love ya man <3. I feel like I'm expanding, but its still hard not to look back every once and a while and hope to find that anchor in time just once more. Well thats the way life blow, the winds can go south sometimes. But this is not a South time, this is a time where I want to praise the fact that Im sitting her, the weather has been so amazing and just lying down on the grass looking at the sky, or throwing around a frisbee, or just getting to wear sandles, has made my entire life so much better, richer, sunnier, and "california surfer lifestyle" happy.

It could be the Weather
It could be my friends
But this is a time of
golden afternoons
spent quitly down near
the earth. A halo of warmth
glows my body with a soft happyness,
the glow on an angel, the glow
of a morning sunrise. And I stay
there, and look at the sky, happily,
forever...

P.S. "And in that moment, I could swear we were infinate" :)

Also I just have to complement god again on the weather, i love you god for making me happy with the sun. I love something that will kill me eventualy, the sun