life changin events.
I'm writing in my journal to amuse myself. The fact that I so anxiously collect my thoughts and splatter them across the screen makes me ill. My stomache turns thinking that I actually care to take the time to reflect on my life. I feel sick.
And now that I think of it, I am that pathetic so here are my thoughts:
I am not amused
but I am interested in the new paths I have been taking lately. Working, playing music devoubtly, and trying harder in school. All seem to be not so my style, but I'm working on making it my style. anyways, I'm trying and I guess thats what counts for now. I have an amazing girl who likes me but I push myself away in fear of hurting her because I still feel so low. I'm tired of bringing people down. I want to be better, I want to influence people, I want to set the example. If and when that will happen... I don't know. Lets find out.
And now that I think of it, I am that pathetic so here are my thoughts:
I am not amused
but I am interested in the new paths I have been taking lately. Working, playing music devoubtly, and trying harder in school. All seem to be not so my style, but I'm working on making it my style. anyways, I'm trying and I guess thats what counts for now. I have an amazing girl who likes me but I push myself away in fear of hurting her because I still feel so low. I'm tired of bringing people down. I want to be better, I want to influence people, I want to set the example. If and when that will happen... I don't know. Lets find out.