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It's a silly thing, it really is, and I should probable not post this but I seem to be in one of my more depressing moods. (deep breath) It's one of those times when you mention something, an idea or a hope that involves other people and then they all suddenly go quiet and then they move on to another topic or simple pretend it never happened. No matters how many times you bring it up, the result seems the same. Like they are trying not to hurt your feelings, but the hint is loud and clear. Yet I can't help holding onto the hope that I am just reading into this way too much. That's it doesn't mean what I think it means.
I think it's the silence that hurts the most though.
It's probable nothing. I'm probable overreacting again, but it still hurts. Why does it have to hurt so much? Not knowing, not able to bring it up. I don't want a straight answer, and yet I do. Is it better to hope? Or do I simple need to accept what the silence is telling and try to move on?
What is my importance anyway?
Sometimes I wonder.
Maybe I am not as wanted I had hoped.
Shit, this is stupid. I'm going to bed.
I think it's the silence that hurts the most though.
It's probable nothing. I'm probable overreacting again, but it still hurts. Why does it have to hurt so much? Not knowing, not able to bring it up. I don't want a straight answer, and yet I do. Is it better to hope? Or do I simple need to accept what the silence is telling and try to move on?
What is my importance anyway?
Sometimes I wonder.
Maybe I am not as wanted I had hoped.
Shit, this is stupid. I'm going to bed.