Time
I know how long it takes me to do everything i've ever done.
7 minutes to smoke 1 newport 100
4 minutes from home to work
2 minutes from work to home
6 or 8 hour shifts; no breaks
45 seconds to eat a cheeseburger on clock
4 hours to clean the office
12 hours at the job to feel not so useless
8 minutes to school
12 to come home
10 minutes to brew coffee
20 minutes to drink a cup calmly
8 hours to sleep well
3 hours of sleep to function
14 minutes to shower well
10 minutes to be clean
3 months to lose 30 pounds when i want to
1 day to trust you
2 minutes to hate you
3 seconds to feel inadequate
20 minutes to get ready
1 minute to ruin my day
I CAN NOT WAIT to not have the urge to time myself.
To not know how long it takes to do something.
To not care when i finish.
To not worry about what i need to do next.
I want to be comfortable in my own skin in the moment that I'm in.
I want to feel like I should be here right now.
I want to feel like I'm not the only one who fears tomorrow.
8 minutes to write this down.
7 minutes to smoke 1 newport 100
4 minutes from home to work
2 minutes from work to home
6 or 8 hour shifts; no breaks
45 seconds to eat a cheeseburger on clock
4 hours to clean the office
12 hours at the job to feel not so useless
8 minutes to school
12 to come home
10 minutes to brew coffee
20 minutes to drink a cup calmly
8 hours to sleep well
3 hours of sleep to function
14 minutes to shower well
10 minutes to be clean
3 months to lose 30 pounds when i want to
1 day to trust you
2 minutes to hate you
3 seconds to feel inadequate
20 minutes to get ready
1 minute to ruin my day
I CAN NOT WAIT to not have the urge to time myself.
To not know how long it takes to do something.
To not care when i finish.
To not worry about what i need to do next.
I want to be comfortable in my own skin in the moment that I'm in.
I want to feel like I should be here right now.
I want to feel like I'm not the only one who fears tomorrow.
8 minutes to write this down.