I need some assistance.

Jul 31, 2009 11:18

Life has handed me a bushel of lemons and I'm not sure which one to turn into lemonade.

The one is completely and utterly kind and caring. He helps me with my problems and gives me harsh, but honest advice. He's not afraid to call me out on my bluffs and my mistakes. And yet, he's always the one to make me feel better. He is eager to make our friendship into something more. The one vice is that I'm not sure if taking it to the next level is wise. Is it safe to call him mine and in doing so ruin my other options? Rot my other lemons? and again, there's the issue of my family's acceptance. They would definitely frown upon this decision, however, is my opinion not the only one that truly matters?

The other is always up for laughs. I'm at his house at least twice a week and am friendly with most if not all of the friends that I have met of his. This will not turn into something more, but to pick anyone else indefinitely would be to ruin what we do have. I abandon all other plans to enjoy his company a lot of the time and I never seem to regret it. We have fun, we have adventures, and we like each other a great deal. Is it wise to keep things the way they are, even if it's not set in stone? Is it worth it to be happy in the moment, when it could just as quickly be over? Or should I end it now and become more stable at the risk of regretting my decision?

Aye the last. He is completely and utterly awkward. We've shared moments that neither would have experienced without the other. He is the textbook decision that my family would make. His family knows my family, he's not too old, not too young. He has a job, he has money, he has no problem funding my habits and is always there to make me laugh, if not in person, more on paper. When we do hang out, there is nothing much to it. We watch movies and listen to music and the conversation is to a minimum. This would be not my decision at all, but one to please my parents. As I have always been on their bad side with the boys or men that I choose, would it be ridiculous to make them happy for once at my own happiness' expense?
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