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I know now that this is where I am supposed to be, that I am supposed to have the friendship I have.
If I wasnt, then I wouldnt have gone to California. God wants me here. He wants me with my friends, and my family.
My life, yeah it sucks. Its hard, and confusing, and I am broken. For some reason though, I know its supposed to be like this.
It hurts. Everything hurts. My heart is completely in pieces, and I dont know how to put it together this time. Half of me wonders if all of this is karma, all of my hurt and pain, and bad luck. The other half wonders if it supposed to be like this?
They say, " What doesnt kill you, only makes you stronger." Well I cant wait around anymore, either kill me or make me strong, because this Limbo I am in, isnt working for me.
I was at home today, and I watched over 5 DVDS of my home videos. I saw me as a little kid, with my retarded hair, over sized clothes and all my loser childhood glory; but odly, I was smiling. All the time. ALL the time I smiled.
I will try to smile more.
If I wasnt, then I wouldnt have gone to California. God wants me here. He wants me with my friends, and my family.
My life, yeah it sucks. Its hard, and confusing, and I am broken. For some reason though, I know its supposed to be like this.
It hurts. Everything hurts. My heart is completely in pieces, and I dont know how to put it together this time. Half of me wonders if all of this is karma, all of my hurt and pain, and bad luck. The other half wonders if it supposed to be like this?
They say, " What doesnt kill you, only makes you stronger." Well I cant wait around anymore, either kill me or make me strong, because this Limbo I am in, isnt working for me.
I was at home today, and I watched over 5 DVDS of my home videos. I saw me as a little kid, with my retarded hair, over sized clothes and all my loser childhood glory; but odly, I was smiling. All the time. ALL the time I smiled.
I will try to smile more.