This is Me...
This is the Real Tori
Tori
No one really knows her, as well as they think.
Shes quiet and shy.
She despices racing and all the things that remind her of it.
She used to love everything and everyone, now she trusts very few.
She has grown up in the last few months, and has realized endless amounts of things.
Some may call her dramatic, but she reacts to things the only way she knows how.
She tries to find balance within her insecurities, but sometimes she cant.
She feels pressured by her parents to suceed, yet sometimes;
she wonders if she will dissapoint them.
She hopes to make it big one day,
and live her dream out.
She tries to make the best out of any situation.
She gets dissapointed easily, and hurt more easily.
She is vulnerable most of the time, and breaks at most things.
She builds walls around her heart, and lets few people in.
She doesnt talk about a lot of things, because she thinks no will understand.
She loves her family, but is afriad they will hurt her again.
She lives a complicated life, but doesnt let people in it.
She is afraid of hurting the ones she loves.
She tries and tries, but feels she only fails.
She longs for something more than what she has.
She has a good life, but sometimes doesnt see it clearly.
She is dissapointed easily, but tries to play it off as nothing.
She wants the best for her family, and friends, but most of all;
Herself.
Her Loving Father:
Who supports her decisions, and provides a wonderful life for her. Who tries to be the best he can be.
Her Mother and Step Father:
Who work everyday to provide all the things they feel thier children deserve. Who talk to them about everything, and make them feel as though they have a secure family. Who will always be there for them, and have created a home for all of them to be together.
Her Sister, Her Best Friend:
Who guides her through the life she lead. Who makes her be a better person, who teachers her lessons from her own expierience. Who makes sure she does not mess up like her. To make sure she succeds and does not end up in something she shouldnt be. Who sings her to sleep when shes sad, and holds her up to the highest point when she is sad. Who tries to be a better person, and a role model for her little sister. Who takes her with her, so she can expierience things that someone should, but to where she can control it. Who has taught her endless lessons, and shows her that life, is shit, but you can make it. Her Rock.
Her Baby Sister:
Who shows her that she needs to be a role model for. Who she talks to about boys, drugs, sex, and things maybe a 13 year old wouldnt understand. Who will kill for her, and beat a bitch down. She gets annoyed and frusterated with her, but does not want to exclude her from her life. Who she talks to and wants to mold into a better person. Who she protects from all, and hopes that she will one day see the reason, that she does what she does.
Her Baby Cousin Aaron:
Who she has watched grow from holding in her arms, to playing catch with in her backyard. Who loves holidays and lunches with him, and being able to play with him. Who she taught to play pattycake, and hide and seek. Who loves star crunch, and when they play Buzz Lightyear together. Who makes her sad when she sees how big he has gotten, but lights up when he walks through the door and runs to her and hugs her with a big smile on his face. Who lights up her life when he laughs, and when he smiles. Who makes her love everything about life, and misses him when she hasnt seen him. Who she loves with all her heart.
Her Best Friend Kathlyn:
Which she shares some of the most amazing memories with. Who her family adores, and considers her a part of it. When she feels like herself when she is with her. Who she can tell everything to, and know she listens. Who has times where it is rough, but always comes out on top. A friendship like no other, that has suffered amazing things, but they held it together through it all. Who means the world to her, and knows that things will be okay.
Queen Pin:
Her partner in crime, and one of the best people she has in her life. Who she spends time with, and talks, laughs and enjoys life. Who is there for her through everything, and worries about her. Who understands so much about her, and has a close friendship with. Who she will choose people over, no matter what happens.
Her Crackhead:
Her fellow captain in life, and the one who has taught her so much about life, love and friendships.
Who she knows she will always have a place in her heart. Who has showed her more than most people in life. Who she knows, loves and cares for her.
Her Backbone Krystah:
The one she calls in the middle of the night and cries to about the hardships of life. Who she has an amazingly stong bond with that she hopes lasts for a long time. Who picks her up when she falls, and who she tells everything to, and will never let go of. Who she knows listens, and she knows cares. Who is one of the most important people in her life.
Her Neighbor For Life Bianca:
Who she learned to ride bikes with, and would run to crying in the night. Who she would watch movies with till all hours of the morning. Who she has shared a life time of memories with, and has grown up with since they age of 4. Who she has countless memories with, who she has learned and grown from, and who has taught her so many life lessons. Who knows her entire life history, and all about her family, and they struggles they have faced. Who knows her fears and struggles. Who has seen her at a time, no one else has. Who has been there through so much, and always will be. Who she has a deep connection with and is like a sister. Who has picked her up through it all, and who she loves with all her heart. Who has shared more times of hurt and pain with than anyone else. Who gives the best advice and is totally honest. Who knows, no matter what, she will always be, the one across the street. No amount of miles, or streets can seperate the fact that they are and always will be, neighbors and best friends.
Her One and Only Taylor Rowland:
Her friend since 6th grade, and hero now. Who she has seen grow, and who has seen her grow. Someone she can talk to at any time, and trust with more than life. Who knows will always be there to support her through her struggles. A beautiful person who has seen some things in her life, people could only dream of. Who she loves and trusts.
Her Samantha Nicole:
Who she has had many adventures and deep talks with. Who supports her and loves her through her mistakes. Who tries to make her a better person and shows her that you have to life your life. To not dwell on the past, and live for the future. Who has opened her eyes to so much, and shown her so many things. Who she has told secrets to, and who has been there for her for so much. Who she loves, and will always support through anything.
Baylee:
The one person she would turn to in times of need, and still does. The one who talked her through it all, and has been there since the first day they met. Who she cares about so much, and misses more than anything. Who knows almost everything about, and hopes the best for in life. Who she knows will suceed and hopes the will be happy one day. Who knows her struggles, and her hard times. The things she has had to overcome, and the times she has fallen, yet picked her back up.
Her Music:
She can shut herself off from the world. No one knows the passion of her talent, and the depth of it. She loves it more than anything, and she loves to play. She loves the sound, and the feeling she gets. She is passionate about her talent, but is afraid to show it.
Her Baby Kovu:
Her kitten who she loves, and plays with all the time. Who runs to her and greets her at the door, and who she loves to lay and watch tv with. Who she adores more than anything.
Her Future:
The things she spends each day dreaming of. The things she wants to succed. Her future children and life. Her future sons, Joshua and James Taylor. Who she will love and adore, and no matter what happens in life, will support them and teach the the morals and values she has. The places she wishes to go, and the things she wants to do. The people she wants to spend the rest of her life trusting and knowing, and loving. The people she wants to meet, and the places she wants to live. The way of life she lives, may not make sense, but she knows, its the only way to succed. Her plans in life may not be simple, but she will make it, and nothing will stop her.