you can and WILL do this.
thinking about this next coming semester gives me the same feeling i get when i'm driving to the dentist. i'm fucking scared, i kinda wanna cry, i feel like a big baby, and i'm scared shitless of how much it's gonna hurt.
aghhh, but you know, when it comes down to what's gonna happn, i know i've got to do the opposite of what my body is trying to do. i have to stay calm. i have to keep listening to uplighting music, i have to just keep reminding myself that i AM trying as hard as i can, and i have it in me, i just have to suck it up and get it over with. If this program is for me, then i will BE in the program. period, end of story.
but the big baby inside is going, "i'm scared i'm scared hold my hand oh my god i'm so scared."
which is why i need some valluum for what's about to happen.
not....kidding.
songs i should remember to put on repeat when i feel like i'm dying...
"come downstairs and say hello" guster
"bright side of the road" van morrison
"santa monica" everclear
"the good life" weezer
"river of dreams" billy joel (because it makes my laugh. and laughing makes me feel good)
"alright" thicke
aghhh, but you know, when it comes down to what's gonna happn, i know i've got to do the opposite of what my body is trying to do. i have to stay calm. i have to keep listening to uplighting music, i have to just keep reminding myself that i AM trying as hard as i can, and i have it in me, i just have to suck it up and get it over with. If this program is for me, then i will BE in the program. period, end of story.
but the big baby inside is going, "i'm scared i'm scared hold my hand oh my god i'm so scared."
which is why i need some valluum for what's about to happen.
not....kidding.
songs i should remember to put on repeat when i feel like i'm dying...
"come downstairs and say hello" guster
"bright side of the road" van morrison
"santa monica" everclear
"the good life" weezer
"river of dreams" billy joel (because it makes my laugh. and laughing makes me feel good)
"alright" thicke