Couples Therapy 51.4
Patient: James 'Sawyer' Ford
Fandom: Lost
Partner(s) of Patient: Kate Austen (canon) and Emma Frost (RP)
Words: 429
Prompt: 51.4
"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love. Listens but doesn't believe. And leaves, before she is left."
-- Marilyn Monroe
He's lost so much in his life. His parents, Cassidy and his could be child. His identity. His will to live. All of them gone at one point or another. He tells himself he should be used to it. It's been a part of his life for so long, it should be second nature. But nothing... nothing prepared him for losing Kate. Nothing had prepared him for finding her in the first place. She had been his match in every way. He had never been so tantalized by one person. Never so impressed. Never so infuriated or amused or in love. She had stolen his heart and the irony didn't escape him. He stole hearts and broke them as if they were useless trinkets. A means to an end. And now this woman, this... fiery ball of passion and fury, had shown him the TRUE meaning of karma. All it took was that one kiss in Mystery Jungle and he was hooked. She was his addiction, his drug. He craved her. And yet... she was never his. He never said it, those words he knew he meant, because he knew she would run. But, God he'd needed to say them and now it was too late. She was gone anyway.
And that lead him to the second biggest mistake of his life. He'd let losing Kate strip him raw and he'd ignored the only other woman that had really mattered to him. Emma had come like a priceless whirlwind and tore down his walls, revealing everything that he was. She'd loved him openly and had never asked anything of him. And looking back, she should have. She should have asked him to let go of Kate. Asked him to make sure she didn't regret her choice to come and find him. Instead, she was patient and understanding (mostly). She had been everything he'd needed from Kate. And yet... when Kate was gone; when he thought she had died; all he had done was distance himself. He spent little to no time with Emma and instead, spent his days in regret. Regret that he had let so much go unsaid. And in doing so, left many more things unsaid to someone who would have WANTED to hear them.
He loved them both. More than any man had a right to love a woman, much less two of them. One hadn't wanted him enough and the other too much. And both of them were smart enough to know a lost cause. Perhaps that why was he had loved them at all.
((ooc: Sawyer is not IN Couples Therapy, but he has a whole lot of issues to deal with, so I'm just borrowing the prompts. Thanks!))
Fandom: Lost
Partner(s) of Patient: Kate Austen (canon) and Emma Frost (RP)
Words: 429
Prompt: 51.4
"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love. Listens but doesn't believe. And leaves, before she is left."
-- Marilyn Monroe
He's lost so much in his life. His parents, Cassidy and his could be child. His identity. His will to live. All of them gone at one point or another. He tells himself he should be used to it. It's been a part of his life for so long, it should be second nature. But nothing... nothing prepared him for losing Kate. Nothing had prepared him for finding her in the first place. She had been his match in every way. He had never been so tantalized by one person. Never so impressed. Never so infuriated or amused or in love. She had stolen his heart and the irony didn't escape him. He stole hearts and broke them as if they were useless trinkets. A means to an end. And now this woman, this... fiery ball of passion and fury, had shown him the TRUE meaning of karma. All it took was that one kiss in Mystery Jungle and he was hooked. She was his addiction, his drug. He craved her. And yet... she was never his. He never said it, those words he knew he meant, because he knew she would run. But, God he'd needed to say them and now it was too late. She was gone anyway.
And that lead him to the second biggest mistake of his life. He'd let losing Kate strip him raw and he'd ignored the only other woman that had really mattered to him. Emma had come like a priceless whirlwind and tore down his walls, revealing everything that he was. She'd loved him openly and had never asked anything of him. And looking back, she should have. She should have asked him to let go of Kate. Asked him to make sure she didn't regret her choice to come and find him. Instead, she was patient and understanding (mostly). She had been everything he'd needed from Kate. And yet... when Kate was gone; when he thought she had died; all he had done was distance himself. He spent little to no time with Emma and instead, spent his days in regret. Regret that he had let so much go unsaid. And in doing so, left many more things unsaid to someone who would have WANTED to hear them.
He loved them both. More than any man had a right to love a woman, much less two of them. One hadn't wanted him enough and the other too much. And both of them were smart enough to know a lost cause. Perhaps that why was he had loved them at all.
((ooc: Sawyer is not IN Couples Therapy, but he has a whole lot of issues to deal with, so I'm just borrowing the prompts. Thanks!))