Yesterday, I watched The Crash of the Titans.
1. Today, I decided to give an update on my life and such. I mentioned a while ago that I took a bit of a respite away from stuff to get a handle on my health and such. During my absence, I told my father that I couldn't have him in my life. It was a really hard thing to do, but it needed to be done.
Since then, I've been sick four times. In five weeks. And nothing in the last two.
So, yes, this sick thing is stress-related...and my dad was the number one contributor. Against my wishes, he called me. And I was nauseous for hours afterward. So, yeah, it's hard because I can't even talk to him right now. He's like poison to me. Ugh. It's hard because the holidays are coming up and I sorta miss him and sorta don't. It's a lot more unnecessary, unwarranted guilt that I'm leaving him alone for the holidays and it's totally not on me. Since he stole from me and he lied to me and he made it so I couldn't have a relationship with him. But guilt doesn't always make sense.
On the other hand, the pain is pretty bad and now I have pain constantly. Back spasms and such. I don't walk anymore. I shuffle. Meh.
2. Anyone that considers themselves a Patriots Fan should read this article. Cracked the fuck up reading it.
3. I've been reading Gibbs/Tony fanfic. omg. I'm sure that anyone who knows me isn't all that surprised. Could I be anymore predictable?
4. I completely failed in my goal to write. So, I'm going to try this week for the same goal.
5. I've decided to stop trying to force myself to sleep at night. I'm going to switch my schedule to sleep during the day and be up in the evening and night instead. I feel better when I sleep during the day. My body fights sleeping at night. I'll only have to alter my sleep patterns on Saturday. I think it'll be better for me.
6. GIP.
Since then, I've been sick four times. In five weeks. And nothing in the last two.
So, yes, this sick thing is stress-related...and my dad was the number one contributor. Against my wishes, he called me. And I was nauseous for hours afterward. So, yeah, it's hard because I can't even talk to him right now. He's like poison to me. Ugh. It's hard because the holidays are coming up and I sorta miss him and sorta don't. It's a lot more unnecessary, unwarranted guilt that I'm leaving him alone for the holidays and it's totally not on me. Since he stole from me and he lied to me and he made it so I couldn't have a relationship with him. But guilt doesn't always make sense.
On the other hand, the pain is pretty bad and now I have pain constantly. Back spasms and such. I don't walk anymore. I shuffle. Meh.
2. Anyone that considers themselves a Patriots Fan should read this article. Cracked the fuck up reading it.
3. I've been reading Gibbs/Tony fanfic. omg. I'm sure that anyone who knows me isn't all that surprised. Could I be anymore predictable?
4. I completely failed in my goal to write. So, I'm going to try this week for the same goal.
5. I've decided to stop trying to force myself to sleep at night. I'm going to switch my schedule to sleep during the day and be up in the evening and night instead. I feel better when I sleep during the day. My body fights sleeping at night. I'll only have to alter my sleep patterns on Saturday. I think it'll be better for me.
6. GIP.