Love is not a reason to kill, but it's a damn good M.O.
Hello, hello my duckies, it's me again. Your Humble Narrator, for some reason in a chipper mood. Chipper hm, can I say that ? Is that a word ? Oh well, Chipper it is. Yes, a rather chipper mood. I'm just trying to get all my frustrations off my chest as easily as I can without exploding or going completely mad (lol), and for the most part I guess I can. In the words of a good friend of mine, "Sometimes we all just have to look at that positive." and that's what I'm choosing to do. To look at the positive. And in order to look at the positive I just have to voice the negative. Simply because I'm not use to saying I'm sad and here's why. I just ignore it and then I end up more sad then I was to begin with. I'm trying to end that by posting these entries. In hopes that it can clear up a good 80% of my anger. So, let's dive in shall we ?
I'm lonely...well no shit Eugene, you've said that in just about every entry you've ever written, get over it ! Ha ha, here's the gotcha, easier said than done. Am I right ? I mean people just don't up and run into each other and then about oh, say 3 days later they're two peas in a pod. Oh no, fuck that. There's a whole ceremony and what not before you even get that close. Now I'm a Scientist, so I'm always trying to figure out how to get from A to Z. And yet for the life of me that just doesn't add up...the meeting people part. I can't get it for the life of me. By that I mean...I don't know, it's just very interesting to see how things begin. Relationships in general, I who said what first, who called who, who said who liked who first, who decided on the first date, who kissed who first, How'd who meet who. These are questions that are variabled. And yes, I know I am OVER thinking this. I over think alot, it's a habit...but a delightful one I've always enjoyed...to a certain extent.
But as I was saying, the journey from point A to point Z is a long one, or it could be a short one depending on the people. I mean really, it's a complete quandry to me. Now, the reason why this is something I ponder often is because I'm not exactly sure I am able to get from A to Z.
I guess it's one of those things that are just natural...but then again I've never been a guy to follow the natural order of things, well most things. I enjoy studying relationships mostly because I see some of the people who have them and I'm like "Well if such and such can do then why the fuck am I having such a hard fuckin' time ?". It's kinda like that episode of "Frasier" one of my favorite episodes in fact where Frasier and Family go to a ski cabin and Daphne brings a long a friend, there's also a Gay Ski instructor. So anyways Daphne's friend likes Niles, The ski instructor likes Niles, Niles like Daphne, Frasier liked Daphne's friend and in the midst of all the hormons and what not, no one wanted Frasier. I find myself in that situation often and in order to keep from going nuts you just gotta get into the masochistic hilarity of it.
It just that. Masochistic hilarity it keeps us together. Or better yet it keeps me together. But I find myself doing that often. I don't know I guess it's just curiosity as to who I'll end up with if I end up with anyone at all. I don't know, try as I might I can't honestly see myself with anyone. And I'm not saying that to illustrate how much of a loser I think I am, I'm saying that because I honestly can't. A comedian once said that if you're single for too long you eventually pick up habits that keep you single. That makes perfect sense to me. I'm pretty sure I've picked up most of the habits, a good example of those habits would be staying at home. Well granted I'm not driving yet but when I do I doubt I'll be here. And the only reason I'm here is because I have no real desire to go anywhere else...as lame as that sounds, I honestly don't. Anyways, entry over. Once again thank you all for reading. Luv you guys and God bless you all.
I'm lonely...well no shit Eugene, you've said that in just about every entry you've ever written, get over it ! Ha ha, here's the gotcha, easier said than done. Am I right ? I mean people just don't up and run into each other and then about oh, say 3 days later they're two peas in a pod. Oh no, fuck that. There's a whole ceremony and what not before you even get that close. Now I'm a Scientist, so I'm always trying to figure out how to get from A to Z. And yet for the life of me that just doesn't add up...the meeting people part. I can't get it for the life of me. By that I mean...I don't know, it's just very interesting to see how things begin. Relationships in general, I who said what first, who called who, who said who liked who first, who decided on the first date, who kissed who first, How'd who meet who. These are questions that are variabled. And yes, I know I am OVER thinking this. I over think alot, it's a habit...but a delightful one I've always enjoyed...to a certain extent.
But as I was saying, the journey from point A to point Z is a long one, or it could be a short one depending on the people. I mean really, it's a complete quandry to me. Now, the reason why this is something I ponder often is because I'm not exactly sure I am able to get from A to Z.
I guess it's one of those things that are just natural...but then again I've never been a guy to follow the natural order of things, well most things. I enjoy studying relationships mostly because I see some of the people who have them and I'm like "Well if such and such can do then why the fuck am I having such a hard fuckin' time ?". It's kinda like that episode of "Frasier" one of my favorite episodes in fact where Frasier and Family go to a ski cabin and Daphne brings a long a friend, there's also a Gay Ski instructor. So anyways Daphne's friend likes Niles, The ski instructor likes Niles, Niles like Daphne, Frasier liked Daphne's friend and in the midst of all the hormons and what not, no one wanted Frasier. I find myself in that situation often and in order to keep from going nuts you just gotta get into the masochistic hilarity of it.
It just that. Masochistic hilarity it keeps us together. Or better yet it keeps me together. But I find myself doing that often. I don't know I guess it's just curiosity as to who I'll end up with if I end up with anyone at all. I don't know, try as I might I can't honestly see myself with anyone. And I'm not saying that to illustrate how much of a loser I think I am, I'm saying that because I honestly can't. A comedian once said that if you're single for too long you eventually pick up habits that keep you single. That makes perfect sense to me. I'm pretty sure I've picked up most of the habits, a good example of those habits would be staying at home. Well granted I'm not driving yet but when I do I doubt I'll be here. And the only reason I'm here is because I have no real desire to go anywhere else...as lame as that sounds, I honestly don't. Anyways, entry over. Once again thank you all for reading. Luv you guys and God bless you all.