...space so i can sleep...

[reddfyredragoon]

i had a dream and it confused me so much.
so i'm friends with susie and we've agreed that just being friends is better. so we go to a party at athens' house. we're layin down watching a movie. and she leans over and gives me a kiss on the cheek. i give her a kiss on the nose. she returns it with one on the chin & i return that with on on the forehead. but then we both kiss.

i wouldn't think a thing of it, but it felt so good and just.... right. and it wasn't sexual at all. i never drempt of her body or anything like that. just her face.

so i don't know if its something with susie that i've been hiding from myself or just having someone (noone in particular at the moment) to treat like that.

the more i think about dating someone, the more i'm pushed away from it right now. i know that when i date someone, i become really attached (just ask kristen (if she'll talk to you)), and i have such great friends right now i don't want to loose the freidnsships i have.
argh!

dear God, please fix me. amen.

i'll catch you kids later
love ya