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[reddendream]

I don't understand what I'm supposed to do.

You know what Axel, just don't talk next time.  Just shut your fucking mouth.

I'm always here if you want to talk Roxas.... I'll come see you later, yea?

I...I...you know how I feel.

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[twicealie]

Yeah, that's a good start.

N-No don't. Normally when a person says they want to be alone... they want to be alone.

[ooc: oh gods. Sorry about posting with the wrong journal. That was another RP one of mine. lD;;; REALLY TIRED THIS MORNING.]

[reddendream]

But we're not normal people and I think we should have a thorough discussion about all this.

[ooc: haha, no worries! I got that email and I was all, but that's not the real Sora! XD]

[twicealie]

I don't want to talk.

[reddendream]

I... stop being such a little kid and talk to me! I can't fix it if I don't know what I did!

[twicealie]

I'm being a little kid? Well pardon me for not wanting to hold your hand and show you what you did to make me feel like crap! Some things you gotta figure out on your own, Axel.

[reddendream]

Whatever, you aren't helping any. Go off and feel sorry for yourself then.

[twicealie]

...

You know. Screw it, and screw you.

[reddendream]

Go ahead, Roxy, screw me. You're the only one, I love you so much, what the hell is your problem?

[twicealie]

Don't even lie about that. You don't want me at all, if you did you would have done something about it. But no. What is it about me that's so undesirable? Am I not tall enough? Too thin? Eyes the wrong shade of blue?

Tell me so I can fix it, Axel. I love you with every fiber in my being, but is it enough? What do I have to do to make you want me!?

[reddendream]

.. What the fuck are you going off about? I fucking love you, Roxas. I killed myself for you, did you fucking forget that?

I don't know where the hell you get off thinking that I don't love you, but I've always loved you, and there's nothing you can do to change the way you are and if you changed the way you are then I wouldn't love because I love you just the way you are and, and, and fuck.

....

Obviously you think I don't love you. I can't even believe you could think that about me.

[twicealie]

I know you love me Axel. I could never think bad about you. Ever.

But love... and want are two different things.

[reddendream]

What difference? Want?

I love you. That's not enough for you? I don't know what you want Roxas, not unless you tell me.

[twicealie]

I thought, at the very least... You'd want to kiss me.

[reddendream]

You want me to kiss you? Is that why you're upset? Roxas, come here, I'll fucking kiss you everywhere. I just... I don't want you to change your mind, or to feel like we're rushing this... I don't want you to regret it and I just.. I don't want... I do love you and I do want to kiss you and fuck.

[reddendream]

.... you're retarded if you think I don't want to kiss you, Roxas.

[twicealie]

Axel...