hyperventilate
i feel another of my torturously learned life lessons coming on. i wouldn't take any of them back, so long as i actually learn from them. history repeats itself ppl never change you cant teach an old dog new tricks glutton for punishment ASIDE, i think even a partial lesson learned is worth it.
there are complaints and various accusations amongst my family of members who are stubborn and hard headed, and im never singled out as such, but surely i am in some ways. i could avoid so many of the times that bring emotional trappings with them, and i don't, and partly it must be my insistence on seeing things thru to some conclusion. ive never learned how to let things go if letting go means a slow death, whether painful or not.
i dont know when this one will come to a head, or whether it will be exacerbated, or alternately overridden, by the much more important and ultimately more pressing LIFE CHANGE that is coming up (end of school days, beginning of career).
for now i find solace in the knowledge that no, im not repeating past mistakes, and in fact what ive learned from my plethora (buzz word) of prior boulettes is comforting now and keeping things more sane, more content at the end of the day.
if there is one thing i do, and right, its surround myself with exceptional people.
there are complaints and various accusations amongst my family of members who are stubborn and hard headed, and im never singled out as such, but surely i am in some ways. i could avoid so many of the times that bring emotional trappings with them, and i don't, and partly it must be my insistence on seeing things thru to some conclusion. ive never learned how to let things go if letting go means a slow death, whether painful or not.
i dont know when this one will come to a head, or whether it will be exacerbated, or alternately overridden, by the much more important and ultimately more pressing LIFE CHANGE that is coming up (end of school days, beginning of career).
for now i find solace in the knowledge that no, im not repeating past mistakes, and in fact what ive learned from my plethora (buzz word) of prior boulettes is comforting now and keeping things more sane, more content at the end of the day.
if there is one thing i do, and right, its surround myself with exceptional people.