And then I grew wings
Suddenly I'm booked for a flight to Vietnam at the start of next month. I wanted to spend most if my spare time travelling and getting out of Manila but Vietnam wasn't part of the plan. But if it's going to help get money to help fund for my auntie's chemotherapy, then why not right?
I should be used to this.
In 2003, while bumming around waiting for school to start in June, we had issues in the family that had my mum booking me a ticket to go to the US to see my little brother. It was a spontaneous plan and I was the only one that could pack up my bags and just go there. The situation got worse when my uncle's cancer got worse and my older brother was rushed to the hospital for kidney stones. Suddenly I was grounded again and the plan to go was cancelled.
Not saying that the same thing will happen this time. But the idea that I'm still the only one in the family that can pack up and go even after 10 years kind of makes me compare myself to others. You'd think that after 10 years, the situation would have changed.
I remember doing one of those quizzes on LJ during those days (around 2002-2003) and it asked me how I saw myself in 10 years time and to be specific. I saw myself as being in a relationship and being married by the time I was 28 and settling down and having kids. What was I thinking?
So I guess it's ok that my idea of how life was supposed to be at this age didn't work out. Cause I'm not done travelling and exploring. And it is ok that I am that one person in the family that has the time (or rather makes the time) to pack up and go. But I know the time will come when I won't be that person anymore and that I can't always be that reliable family member.