what can I say.
right... [14 Oct 2004|10:31pm]
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Letsee...today I woke up late...skipped class. What followed would be a pretty typical day..until about around 540, when I pretty much came as close as you can get to getting into a physical altercation with my dad as I could get. He pissed me off so much and vice versa I suppose.
So I get to work, and several hours later I find that one of my favorite coworkers is quitting. And then even more beyond that I find out that my other coworker and friend for that matter got fkn arrested. I'm deeply saddened by that...she's a good girl...just grew up in the wrong circumstances I believe. So anyway, we were short a person at work, so it was kinda stressful.
At church last sunday Pastor taught us about our critical souls...like how certain things are bad..like talking bad of people..
the thing is..I'm trying to turn over new leaves..trying to be a better person..but I wanna point out something first.
To those of my friends who are cool with my exgirlfriend, thats fine with me. But know that today she proved me correct in what I thought of her, and the way she talks about herself especialy online is pretty much her own self delusion.
You're a good girl Lainey. But you've got issues. You can hate me, that's fine. Taking time out of your busy schedule to have your friends harass me at work only made you the laughing stock of my workplace.
And personally, I could care less.
Take care. Goodnight.
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darkdeadprncess
2004-10-14 23:13 (link) Select
It wasn't my idea and I didn't go out my way. Read my fucking lj if you want to know the truth dumbass.
Your the one who's fucked up.
You prove yourself correct in how I think of you every fucking day.
You can TRY to be a better person. Try is the key word here. I don't know how you will ever come clean with what you've done in the past but you can try. good for you, then you might realize things that are long overdue.
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i don't know... [15 Oct 2004|04:07am]
I don't know how to put it in words clear enough...I'm not sure how else to say it so that it would all get through. ok how about this.
Currently, I have enough things on my mind to deal with.
I will not change my stance. You served your purpose in my life. And I'm QUITE thankful, because had things not happened exactly as they did, then perhaps I wouldn't have gained such a great friend at the expense of our relationship.(you know who you are).
I don't know how else to say it...but aside from wishing you the best of luck in the rest of your life...I SIMPLY COULDN'T CARE LESS.
It bugs me because in writing about this, it makes it seem like today's events affected me. I guess they did. Your friend made me laugh. My cute coworker said she'd kick yr ass if you ever tried to front "her man" ever again. (her man = me. ok its just a joke, but it made me smile).
I don't care. Sorry. That's it. I'll give the world a while to view these entries, but when I feel like it, I will simply throw these away, because they mean nothing to me.
I'm through with this. I HAVE been through with this. I won't participate. I refuse to continue on with this. I don't have to defend myself, because people who truly know me, they know who I am. I've stayed out of your life. Now if you'll kindly stay out of mine, we can all be much, much happier.
This is all I have to say. These entries will disappear, and I will no longer respond to anything you have to say.
Once again, take care, and goodbye.
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iivampiroii
2004-10-15 08:38 (link) Select
oh wait, one last thing..
it isn't your immaturity that annoys me about your personality. I'm immature. A lot of people I know are.
But it's your constant denial of who you really are, and the bullshit that you put online that makes your personality that much harder to deal with. Maybe if I was the first one to feel this way while in a relationship with you I'd be a little off...but I don't think I was.
I'm not saying I'm not hard to deal with, but I'm saying, you are too.
As in my last post, this is it, and I'm done. Get out of my life please. Goodbye.
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What can I say that has already not been said. I am the me that exists in your mind. Whether that be a good person or a bad person, that's up to your perception. You are the you that exists in MY mind. We all have people/friends who would tell stories to the contrary to defend or oppose our true personalities, or vouch for our character..but in the end we are only who we are because of how people perceive us.
I've had enough trouble living my own life as it is. And so I will leave this now, and continue to not really care.
"If an asshole I am, then an asshole I shall be," says Beastie.
But that would only be yours and probably your friends' perception. My friends know me differently, just as your friends know you differently.
Let's leave it at that. I've said this too many times now..
but goodbye.
p.s.- and for godsakes, stop talking about me like I cheated on you or killed your cat or something.
One more time...
say it with me...
Goodbye.