sorting things out
so again with the being ditched by a boy without exactly understanding what was going on in the 'you're being ditched' conversation. my perception is that he was never interested- he felt the need to get there (because i had earlier expressed interest and then benjamin and i had our soujourn in the basement) but then realized he didn't want it. of course, if he had just said something when I asked, it would have been much easier than all the confusion and the frustration. And i'm glad it finally sorted out, and I knew it was coming to an end and that it was a bad idea, but still with the wistful/sad humming through me.