Jun 17, 2008 23:55
Quit smoking finally. can't stop eating, or having a slower metabolism (turns out smoking makes you slightly hypoglycemic, heavy smokers burn up to 200 extra calories per day). I've been running every other day. I've gotten the color back in my face and I'm only chewing about 4 pieces of 4mg nicorette per day. Still coughing up brown shit, which makes me feel more productive. Can't hyperventilate easily yet, that will be a milestone. I can jog 27 minutes straight without getting too wiped out, but it will be a few months before I'm not fatigued from it.
I AM freaking out about the pounds I've gained since I quit. I have hence made up a list of ten reasons why gaining weight after smoking is a good thing, and converseley why I shouldn't start up again.
1) I am not overweight, if only by a few pounds
2)weight gain is completely normal when you quit and is usually shed within 6 months (it's like having a tar baby lol)
3) I shouldn't be so hard on my self when I'm getting over a fucking addiction
4) What's a few pounds when you graduated with honors? (yeah, I'm still on that stfu I'm awesome)
5) Hypothetically, if I started smoking again because I wanted to get skinny I could possibly be the most shallow person in the world.
6) I'm getting laid and lovehandles > flem/ashtray mouth. (though I hate bringing out that clichee)
7) Getting fat after recovering from a life threatening addiction makes me more like Matthew Perry, and who doesn't love that?
8) My boobs are bigger.
9) I can do the jiggly butt cartoon from illwillpress all by myself.
10) lying around naked not smoking in the freezing cold is awesome. It's even more awesome cuz my pudge keeps me warm.
I've found the best way to not get cravings is to not think about smoking or cigarettes or the fact I've quit at all. Thus, this will probably be my only "quit smoking" post . I don't like talking about quitting unless I'm having a craving, and talking about how I'm not smoking or never smoking again gives me more anxiety than it soothes. Its just a small inconvenience at this point. craving + gum = solution, take the rest with a grain of salt. This is by no means The Way To Quit Smoking For Everyone, it just seems to work for me, because I quit at the right time. If I had tried a month earlier, I would still be smoking now. I've gone a month and a half before not smoking ,and the entire time I was miserable. As soon as I hit the 6 week mark I started up again and was happy as a clam. It's very strange that this time it worked with basically the same methods, just less stress and more sex. I'll feel a little bit more accomplished when I hit the 1 month mark (6/26/08), before that there isn't really anything to hoo-haaw about.
I figure I should post something because it's something most people would want to write about in their journal and a few years down the line I might be interested in how I felt at this time, which is pretty neutral (I'm hoping that's a good sign?)