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Triumph! If by "triumph" one means "finished" and oh, I do. Emailed to professor and everything.
That may have been one of the more painful paper writing experiences of my life. It's strange that it's so difficult given how much I'm enjoying being back in school overall. Maybe it's just that I'm out of the habit. I'm sure that's part of it, but I really need to organize my time - and my head - differently next semester. I have a tendency to sabotage myself that I think is all tied up with my deep-rooted Fear of Failure and Humiliation in some really inconvenient ways. It can be overwhelming to the point of paralysis and that always leads to the last minute stressed scramble and it's . . . just not good. It's not new, either, but it seems to matter more here. I think this is a year for New Year's Resolutions. "Don't be so neurotic" is probably too broad, but I can work on not taking any and all criticism as an indictment of me as a person (see also: neurotic) and on asking for help and support when I need it, both academically and in general, but *especially* academically. Those are good steps to at least keep in mind.
No relief has really kicked in yet, but once it does, I'm sure it will be nice. This is the first time in three years that I haven't had to move over Christmas, and it will be LOVELY to not have to worry about that this year. My parents have been calling me for days all WHEN ARE YOU COMING HOME? I hate that I'm not there already, but I just don't think I can get it together to leave tomorrow. I'm going to take tomorrow to chill out and clean and pack and maybe go see Were the World Mine and then early Saturday morning I'll leave for Birmingham. Eleven hours in the car with the screaming cat who hates Panic at the Disco (idk, but nothing makes her scream louder when she is in enclosed spaces). FANTASTIC. It won't be so bad, though (as long as I drug the cat). I like roads and highway driving and I almost never drive at all since I moved out here.
I was supposed to go to Florida for New Year's, but that fell through. I think I'm gonna go to New Orleans instead. Being drunk on the streets of the French Quarter would do me a world of good right now.
Goal for break: Finish a fic. Any fic. The options are Brendon/Ryan/Keltie, Ryan/Spencer, Buffy/Faith or the Completely Random Entourage Fic. I'm not sure which one it will be, and I don't much care, but ONE OF THEM WILL BE DONE.
That may have been one of the more painful paper writing experiences of my life. It's strange that it's so difficult given how much I'm enjoying being back in school overall. Maybe it's just that I'm out of the habit. I'm sure that's part of it, but I really need to organize my time - and my head - differently next semester. I have a tendency to sabotage myself that I think is all tied up with my deep-rooted Fear of Failure and Humiliation in some really inconvenient ways. It can be overwhelming to the point of paralysis and that always leads to the last minute stressed scramble and it's . . . just not good. It's not new, either, but it seems to matter more here. I think this is a year for New Year's Resolutions. "Don't be so neurotic" is probably too broad, but I can work on not taking any and all criticism as an indictment of me as a person (see also: neurotic) and on asking for help and support when I need it, both academically and in general, but *especially* academically. Those are good steps to at least keep in mind.
No relief has really kicked in yet, but once it does, I'm sure it will be nice. This is the first time in three years that I haven't had to move over Christmas, and it will be LOVELY to not have to worry about that this year. My parents have been calling me for days all WHEN ARE YOU COMING HOME? I hate that I'm not there already, but I just don't think I can get it together to leave tomorrow. I'm going to take tomorrow to chill out and clean and pack and maybe go see Were the World Mine and then early Saturday morning I'll leave for Birmingham. Eleven hours in the car with the screaming cat who hates Panic at the Disco (idk, but nothing makes her scream louder when she is in enclosed spaces). FANTASTIC. It won't be so bad, though (as long as I drug the cat). I like roads and highway driving and I almost never drive at all since I moved out here.
I was supposed to go to Florida for New Year's, but that fell through. I think I'm gonna go to New Orleans instead. Being drunk on the streets of the French Quarter would do me a world of good right now.
Goal for break: Finish a fic. Any fic. The options are Brendon/Ryan/Keltie, Ryan/Spencer, Buffy/Faith or the Completely Random Entourage Fic. I'm not sure which one it will be, and I don't much care, but ONE OF THEM WILL BE DONE.