gcs
i'm having way too much fun with the new me. my relations with everything are just different. its weird to see people who know me as they do doubletakes and then try to figure out how to relate to me. course, the sad me is trying to kick in with, this cant last. this isnt a lifestyle one maintains, its one you live for a while while on the prowl and then settle down. which is sad.
too bad i dont know how to integrate david into my life. i cant see going to wicked with david right now... maybe we can drive together and have separate events. but i cant see him wanting to do the things i'm doing. but i dont want the old me back. and all my new friends go to wicked. ima hittin the afterparties this year!
i spent the night at gcs being snarky with snarky people, being oggled and having lots of ppl trying to talk to me, dancing with awesome ppl, including being danced on a couple of times, and then somehow, drinking spiked koolaid in a hot pool watching ghostbusters 2 while riding on the back of a heteroflexible man until 3 in the morning, explaining to him how hot lost girl is.
i'm not quite sure how i end up in these situations, but not only are they fun but i am sure that david would not enjoy himself and barely approve.
i cant quite explain whats different in me, either. but even talking to the snarky guy... i know i've known him and dismissed him in the past. but he was funny.
i know partly its confidence, partly its being at ease and seeing where things lead, partly its throwing out ppl when they bore me and following those who excite me (and not judging aheadof time which is which). part of it is also picking one spot that excites me or generates ppl i like and staying there for hours. i was only in four rooms tonight... the food room to work, the front desk to work, the dance room and the pool. and boy are ppl always fun in the pool.
chocolate and peanut butter! and v8. its totally a meal replacement.
too bad i dont know how to integrate david into my life. i cant see going to wicked with david right now... maybe we can drive together and have separate events. but i cant see him wanting to do the things i'm doing. but i dont want the old me back. and all my new friends go to wicked. ima hittin the afterparties this year!
i spent the night at gcs being snarky with snarky people, being oggled and having lots of ppl trying to talk to me, dancing with awesome ppl, including being danced on a couple of times, and then somehow, drinking spiked koolaid in a hot pool watching ghostbusters 2 while riding on the back of a heteroflexible man until 3 in the morning, explaining to him how hot lost girl is.
i'm not quite sure how i end up in these situations, but not only are they fun but i am sure that david would not enjoy himself and barely approve.
i cant quite explain whats different in me, either. but even talking to the snarky guy... i know i've known him and dismissed him in the past. but he was funny.
i know partly its confidence, partly its being at ease and seeing where things lead, partly its throwing out ppl when they bore me and following those who excite me (and not judging aheadof time which is which). part of it is also picking one spot that excites me or generates ppl i like and staying there for hours. i was only in four rooms tonight... the food room to work, the front desk to work, the dance room and the pool. and boy are ppl always fun in the pool.
chocolate and peanut butter! and v8. its totally a meal replacement.