you're just like a dream
show me how you do that trick
the one that makes me scream
she said
the one that makes me love
she said
threw her arms around my neck
show me how you do it
and i promise you
i promise that i'll run away with you
i'll run away with you.
i cant seem to say what i really feel. its buried down so deep. and i sing songs, and i play games, and i throw glances, and i kiss and i hug.
and i cant seem to say what i mean. how can i say what i mean, when i dont know? this is so embarrassing, that i dont even know. ....not that i dont know. to say i dont honestly know means that it all means nothing anyhow. i am holding onto something, yet locked in indecision. and if i were to say what i really honestly want to... oh, why is it so hard? why cant i be safe? why cant i know that i will be safe? i cant trust. i need to trust. its not that easy for me. i try i try i try. sometimes i'm convinced that i do trust. then something comes up that i cant handle, not even really just something, but feelings. i want to trust. oh its so difficult. and this is so different than it was before.
and still now, i am not saying what i want to say. but that is because the only person that needs to hear it isnt here. is that why i cant think? no. i am thinking. i am thinking. i am trying to reach some ground. some heart. something. some one.