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[redbluechick18]

So the past few days have kinda sucked . . . I've broken down emotionally atleast ten times a day. It didn't even matter where I was. I saw a friend and almost lost it cause he just lost a close one. Then I saw my friend Jen, and basically lost it again. And tthen yea . . . it fuckin sucked. I just lost it again because tomorrow will be five months since bob died. Tomorrow will suck. Anyways, today we played this song and Mr. Campbell, was like you guys need to show more sorrow and pain, your young you'll show it eventually. Me and Bethany just looked at each other like . . . ummm yea ok! Both of us have lost someone that we truely and will always care about so deeply that no one can understand how much they meant to us, even each other, we can discribe it but unless you are put int he exact same life, and the same exact settings then you can't really understand where we come from, and how we have become who we are today from the tragedies that have effect our lifes. On sort of a lighter note I have decided that guys such massive ass. That's what I have decided . . . all you males are way too confusing. And I'm sure all you guys say that we over analyze, and that we over think things . . . maybe you guys just don't think enough about the consequences that are going to arise from what you do or say? Anyways I don't really want to write anymore. so I am not going to.

Bob you are always on my mind, from when I open my eyes and see your pictures, to when I fall asleep, and the last thing I see are your pictures. I miss you more with every day that passes by, I wish I could trade my life for yours! I wish you could come back and then everything would be alright again. I miss you so much! And I love you even more!