mhmm . . .
So Lately, I have been thinking a lot of my Holbrook side of my family. I haven't heard from my grandmother, and I don't know if that has to do with what happened back in court on June 8th . . . but I hope it doesn't because that means that my father has been lying about me again. And I really hate it when he does that. I haven't heard from my Aunt Robin in a while either. I may write her tonight because I can use the internet for that . . . but to write my grandmother I have to use good old fashioned writing it down on paper and using the snail mail.
I want to write about so much that's going on in my mind right now . . . but I know that if I could say it aloud . . . because some of it has to do with people who may read this, and other parts of it I have built walls up to protect myself from the world . . . so there is no way that I could openly say it in a livejournal online. It's just so hard to keep it inside sometimes. And I know that there are people I can go to talk to . . . but it's like I can't give up this information on my own. I just can't. As much as I want to sit down and talk to someone . . . I just can't find the right words to say. And if I was going to voice everything I wanted to say, or talk about . . . I would have to talk to a lot of people. I just don't think I have the strength to do that . . . let down my walls to that many people. I just don't want to be hurt . . . I'm sick of being hurt by people.
Blah! Today I had PT and it was seriously hard. I didn't think that it would be that hard. But by the end of it I was like ok can I be done now? But I never ask that . . . I just suck it all up. I am soar today. I went out with Laura all day after I got out of therapy. We went to Atlantic with her nana so she could do some errands. Then we went to get gas, and my pay check, and to Papa Ginos. We then had to stop by Walmart inorder to get zippers for bags that we are making. We then went to my grandrents house and my Grandma helped us with doing some sewing, and helping with the zippers and stuff like that. We have to go back sometime soon to finish it all.
It's almost time to go back to school. I am so stocked! I can't wait. 16 days, 15 hours and 54 minutes. hehehehe. I can't wait to go back to school. That's all i really have to say for today . . . anyways, I'll write more later. Ooooo yea! Tomorrow I'm going to go to Band Camp and check out the show for this season. . . .