I'm silly
So. I decided what I just posted was silly.
I shouldn't be mad that I have notihng to do tonight. It has happened a lot in the last few weeks and months even, that I have nothing to do and nobody to do it with. Does that make me a loser? I don'[t know. Maybe. Shouldn't I be out partying and getting drunk and having sex or something? Well....I'm not.
My mom was saying how my hair cutter woman, Joanne's, daughter is a lot like Adrienne used to be. As in , impulsive and having very bad judgement. And I was like wow I never have bad judgement. I always do the right thing. And I'm okay with that. Because I think that I like being like this.
Anyways, there are a lot of things I could do to eliminate this issure. Like....Get my license. I would have to share the car with Mare and that would be a nightmare, no offense to her, it just would be. And i could make plans in advance.And I could get somje new friends that like to hang out with me. If anyone knows where I can find some of those, let me know ASAP or introduce us, I'd be much obliged. I could have gone with my mom to take my sister to kickboxing tonight, and go to Borders with her, I could have. I could start kickboxing, too. But I'd have to pay for that and I'm too poor. But I could work some extra days at work to pay for it.
I just realized I was sounding a little bitchy and resentful about the new friends thing. Sorry. I don't mean to sound like that, but it's the truth. (The needing to get friends that want to hang out.) It still sounds resentful but I don't know any other way to put it.
Also, I don't really have anything to offer my friendships. I need to be more interesting so people will think to like, want to hang out with me. Like, fun to be around, you know? Not like, one of the questionable people to invite to your party, somebody that people are like, "Oh of course we have to invite Lauren, how could we NOT?" That sort of thing.
I am really sincere here even though i sound kinda bitchy. I just wanted to explain to myself in writing why I made myself be bored and alone tonight. It's my fault. So I shouldn't blame anyone but Myself. Oh shit i think my house is on fire.
I shouldn't be mad that I have notihng to do tonight. It has happened a lot in the last few weeks and months even, that I have nothing to do and nobody to do it with. Does that make me a loser? I don'[t know. Maybe. Shouldn't I be out partying and getting drunk and having sex or something? Well....I'm not.
My mom was saying how my hair cutter woman, Joanne's, daughter is a lot like Adrienne used to be. As in , impulsive and having very bad judgement. And I was like wow I never have bad judgement. I always do the right thing. And I'm okay with that. Because I think that I like being like this.
Anyways, there are a lot of things I could do to eliminate this issure. Like....Get my license. I would have to share the car with Mare and that would be a nightmare, no offense to her, it just would be. And i could make plans in advance.And I could get somje new friends that like to hang out with me. If anyone knows where I can find some of those, let me know ASAP or introduce us, I'd be much obliged. I could have gone with my mom to take my sister to kickboxing tonight, and go to Borders with her, I could have. I could start kickboxing, too. But I'd have to pay for that and I'm too poor. But I could work some extra days at work to pay for it.
I just realized I was sounding a little bitchy and resentful about the new friends thing. Sorry. I don't mean to sound like that, but it's the truth. (The needing to get friends that want to hang out.) It still sounds resentful but I don't know any other way to put it.
Also, I don't really have anything to offer my friendships. I need to be more interesting so people will think to like, want to hang out with me. Like, fun to be around, you know? Not like, one of the questionable people to invite to your party, somebody that people are like, "Oh of course we have to invite Lauren, how could we NOT?" That sort of thing.
I am really sincere here even though i sound kinda bitchy. I just wanted to explain to myself in writing why I made myself be bored and alone tonight. It's my fault. So I shouldn't blame anyone but Myself. Oh shit i think my house is on fire.