ups and downs
ya..so im really tired of the emotional roller coaster that i have been riding since summer began... i seem to be crying everyday...the tiniest things are triggering me off...its not only drama with guys...cause really theres not much there...im just tired of being the one to call..so far i havent tried to get ahold of him.. im making plans with other guys to hang out with me....im tired of the waiting...but the emotion exploding comes more from family..this morning my stepdad snaps at me....here i am wasting my summer watching his damn kid so we can save money and thats how i get treated..then he apologizes later...i cant deal with that...i want to go on a hunger strike or something..haha..ya right...but really...i feel weaker than i have ever felt before..im constantly sick..i get dizzy and nauseous every day...at nite the room is closing in on me...i dont know anymore..im also taking this estroven pill thats for pre menopausal women..i seriously think im going through it cause i get hot flashes all the time and lately been emotional...sometimes i feel like im dying... :(