"You're history and I'm tapped..."
Despite how long it has been since I've posted, I thought I would just post one of my recent entries on a forum I belong to. It pretty much sums up what's been going on with me lately:
Long story short, one of my brothers (of two) died at 34 from melanoma almost two years ago after a seven month battle with it.
One of our connections was always music, even if we didn't always like the same kind. Music was both of our life lines, really. His main love in life was being a DJ. He co-founded a production company that his friends are still operating now. Anyway, despite not having the same taste in music, recently I re-discovered a band I thought he would have (and possibly did) liked. I noticed that around his birthday (which was about two weeks ago), I started to become obsessed with this band's music, specifically the lead singer. This is not abnormal for me, by the way, but it took me awhile to discover the source of it - until I thought of my brother. The lead singer reminded me SO much of him. Not necessarily physically, but the kind of music they both made was similar and they were both DJs. Specifically, one of their songs hit so close to home I still can't listen to it without getting emotional. When I would listen to interviews with this guy, he would talk about music the same way my brother did. He was basically who I imagined my brother would be had he been more into the music side of things than the DJ side.
The whole point of this is that remembering someone you've lost can come out in some surprising (and positive) ways that you are not always immediately aware of. I will always be thankful for the way this particular band helped me re-connect with my brother. It has brought me a comfort I didn't think was possible given how the almost last two years has been.
Long story short, one of my brothers (of two) died at 34 from melanoma almost two years ago after a seven month battle with it.
One of our connections was always music, even if we didn't always like the same kind. Music was both of our life lines, really. His main love in life was being a DJ. He co-founded a production company that his friends are still operating now. Anyway, despite not having the same taste in music, recently I re-discovered a band I thought he would have (and possibly did) liked. I noticed that around his birthday (which was about two weeks ago), I started to become obsessed with this band's music, specifically the lead singer. This is not abnormal for me, by the way, but it took me awhile to discover the source of it - until I thought of my brother. The lead singer reminded me SO much of him. Not necessarily physically, but the kind of music they both made was similar and they were both DJs. Specifically, one of their songs hit so close to home I still can't listen to it without getting emotional. When I would listen to interviews with this guy, he would talk about music the same way my brother did. He was basically who I imagined my brother would be had he been more into the music side of things than the DJ side.
The whole point of this is that remembering someone you've lost can come out in some surprising (and positive) ways that you are not always immediately aware of. I will always be thankful for the way this particular band helped me re-connect with my brother. It has brought me a comfort I didn't think was possible given how the almost last two years has been.