BARRIE, KING OF DISHONESTY
I feel I am unable to trust anyone here, no one accepts me the way they do back home. No one helps me the way they do back home. I dont feel like I can be myself, u know? the cocky pain in the ass that I am, but u guys loved me anyway and I miss that oh so much words cannot describe! I don't like the people here because I do not believe that I can truly trust them. I believe that they all have hidden agendas. That they all have plans that can only be completed by being friends with me. I don't like it all, don't get me wrong I love my program very very much and the people in my prgram are amazing but the people in rez are different, they give me a weird vibe as I said before. Even the people at work give me a funny feeling. Even my manager at work had the nerve to tell me that my relationship with Heather wouldnt last, like seriously, go fuck yourself you piece of shit! I have no respect for you, I love my girlfriend so much it hurts and she loves me the same. I cannot understand where this bitch gets off fucking saying that. she out right stated that I basically wasnt good enough for Heather which is true on some levels but in all seriousness she can go fuck herself because deep down in places we dont talk about I think she is jealous of the fact that I have such a love and I have found it at such a young age.
I miss the jerks makin fun of me because at least there I knew deep down inside that they loved me and would do anything for me, all I had to do was ask. I dont have a true friend here I dont have someone who lives across the street and would go egging just to make me feel better as I would do for him. I miss my brothers (blood and not blood) and parents so much it hurts sometimes. I miss my dog and cat, maggie and long past Digger, whom I loved while I was living there. I miss Maggie's stupidity and love that she has for me. I miss digger's comfort that he provided to me, I miss his fluff. Everyone here is so fake and made up, back home everyone is true to their beliefs and themselves. There are no politics, there are no hidden agendas, it is just all around genuine love.
Im drunk and in a state of unrest but I hope this made sense, I hope you all realize how much I miss being at home and how hard it is for me to remain happy here. I realize that change is something that I can not stop and that I am bound to experiance it, but even in change I Know I need the jerks and the rest of waterloo more than I need to jerk off.
Sorry beefcake for this being so long but i needed to vent!
Afterall, Big FUCKING DEAL if I have good marks, if I am without the jerks I am without a friend!
Love you boyz so much it hurts i am actually tear eyed right now.
I miss the jerks makin fun of me because at least there I knew deep down inside that they loved me and would do anything for me, all I had to do was ask. I dont have a true friend here I dont have someone who lives across the street and would go egging just to make me feel better as I would do for him. I miss my brothers (blood and not blood) and parents so much it hurts sometimes. I miss my dog and cat, maggie and long past Digger, whom I loved while I was living there. I miss Maggie's stupidity and love that she has for me. I miss digger's comfort that he provided to me, I miss his fluff. Everyone here is so fake and made up, back home everyone is true to their beliefs and themselves. There are no politics, there are no hidden agendas, it is just all around genuine love.
Im drunk and in a state of unrest but I hope this made sense, I hope you all realize how much I miss being at home and how hard it is for me to remain happy here. I realize that change is something that I can not stop and that I am bound to experiance it, but even in change I Know I need the jerks and the rest of waterloo more than I need to jerk off.
Sorry beefcake for this being so long but i needed to vent!
Afterall, Big FUCKING DEAL if I have good marks, if I am without the jerks I am without a friend!
Love you boyz so much it hurts i am actually tear eyed right now.