The one that Scared You

[redbaron19]

I’m so scared
And so unprepared
The future looks unkind
It doesn’t seem to mind
That I’ll be lost and forgotten
So I hide in the cotton
And wish it away
For a far away day
When I may find a piece of mind

The pain is too great
To change this fate
I can’t stay here
I have to go
I can’t handle it anymore

My gang
Is gonna watch me hang
For I am lost
At such a large cost
I am destined to be alone
No one ever call me on the phone
I don’t want to be old and lonely
Everyone knowing I’m a phony
I don’t have the courage to do it
I ain’t brave enough to go through with it
I will live with this feeling
On the ground and kneeling
Praying for a day
When the hurt and pain will go away

I can see the sun
I am having so much fun
On this day
I am soaked in happiness
It seems like unending bliss
Like a sudden kiss
On this summer day
I float away
On natural high
I feel I can fly

I took a knife and sliced my arm
But to my amazement it didn’t set off any alarms
People didn’t hear my cry
Didn’t seem to care if I die
How should I react to that
Its like being hit in the face with a bat
Cause people don’t care
If I feel alone and extremely scared
So I sit in this room with a knife
And slowly slice away at my life
Tears build in my Eyes
Can’t handle the fake smiles, and forced gestures, all lies
The BLOOD DRIPS
MY HEART QUITS
AND IM GONE