The dreams In which I m Dying Are The Best I ever Had
The last two days i have done nothing.
Ive sat in my room after werk listening to music and getting up for two reasons dinner time and bathroom. I dont know what it is but I think im in an emotional slump I dont feel like doing anything. I just wanna curl up in a little ball in my bed with music playing softly in the background and make the world go away or stop completely whichever is more achievable. I'd prefer if it would stop and then go away that would actually be quite nice cause then it would be how i feel, Kind of alone. I know everyone is out there and I appreciate it but i still feel alone for some reason. Im actually thinking about my bed as I sit here and type this. I think im more afraid and nervous of the coming year then i allow myself to believe. I tell myself that Im kool with movin away although I hate leaving my friends behind. What I think i am avoiding telling myself is that Im scared shitless of what is to come about. I realize that the future will approach constantly and there is nothing i can do about. But is being this afraid normal I dont wanna Grow I wanna be a FUCKING TOYS R US KID for the rest of my life. I dont wanna have a job or responsibilities. Where is that bastard Peter Pan and Tinkerbell when you need them. Neverland is my dream world ive decided. From Now on when people ask me place you would most like to go? Neverland will be my reply.
Perhaps most of this rant is brought on by the movie i watched called " Jack " although it isnt the best movie it does point out a few things GRown ups Suck And Kids innocence is the most amazing thing in the whole world.
My Wishes for the night:
1.)World stop and go away.
2.)Take Me To Neverland.
3.) Return my innocence cause grown ups suck!
"What did find that would leave you walking by"
Ive sat in my room after werk listening to music and getting up for two reasons dinner time and bathroom. I dont know what it is but I think im in an emotional slump I dont feel like doing anything. I just wanna curl up in a little ball in my bed with music playing softly in the background and make the world go away or stop completely whichever is more achievable. I'd prefer if it would stop and then go away that would actually be quite nice cause then it would be how i feel, Kind of alone. I know everyone is out there and I appreciate it but i still feel alone for some reason. Im actually thinking about my bed as I sit here and type this. I think im more afraid and nervous of the coming year then i allow myself to believe. I tell myself that Im kool with movin away although I hate leaving my friends behind. What I think i am avoiding telling myself is that Im scared shitless of what is to come about. I realize that the future will approach constantly and there is nothing i can do about. But is being this afraid normal I dont wanna Grow I wanna be a FUCKING TOYS R US KID for the rest of my life. I dont wanna have a job or responsibilities. Where is that bastard Peter Pan and Tinkerbell when you need them. Neverland is my dream world ive decided. From Now on when people ask me place you would most like to go? Neverland will be my reply.
Perhaps most of this rant is brought on by the movie i watched called " Jack " although it isnt the best movie it does point out a few things GRown ups Suck And Kids innocence is the most amazing thing in the whole world.
My Wishes for the night:
1.)World stop and go away.
2.)Take Me To Neverland.
3.) Return my innocence cause grown ups suck!
"What did find that would leave you walking by"