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I just got home from school registration. School is going to be a bitch. I will go from 8am until 4pm and I have to work from 8pm until 4am. That gives me 3 hrs at one point and then 4 hrs at another point to study, sleep, eat and perform ablutions.
Today is my daughter is 9 months old now. Wow! I am sure she is growing like a weed. I received some pictures from her mother in the mail last week. She is so beautiful and I miss her terribly. I have made so many poor decisions and mistakes in my life that I regret. I have pretty much fucked up everything I ever touched. The only positive thing was the beautiful children I fathered. That is why I enrolled in school. I have to stop these self destructive actions. Therapy is going good and medication seems to be helping a great deal. It is doubtful that the damage I caused in my relationship can be repaired, even in the case of friendship, but it does not mean I can't still be an effective father. I will rise out of the ashes of this disaster I created and once I have done so, do what I have to do to be there for my daughter.
Time now to go run some errands.
Today is my daughter is 9 months old now. Wow! I am sure she is growing like a weed. I received some pictures from her mother in the mail last week. She is so beautiful and I miss her terribly. I have made so many poor decisions and mistakes in my life that I regret. I have pretty much fucked up everything I ever touched. The only positive thing was the beautiful children I fathered. That is why I enrolled in school. I have to stop these self destructive actions. Therapy is going good and medication seems to be helping a great deal. It is doubtful that the damage I caused in my relationship can be repaired, even in the case of friendship, but it does not mean I can't still be an effective father. I will rise out of the ashes of this disaster I created and once I have done so, do what I have to do to be there for my daughter.
Time now to go run some errands.