then i woke up

[redalibiremedy]

i was kind of asleep. i am playing afi. really loud. it feels so good. i laid in my bed. smoked a cigg. listened to them tell me. i was half asleep. half awake. the smell of smoke. the cold air coming forth from the fan. the blanket on me. the music. all it brought back was memories, memories of laying in felix's bed. in his arms. loving eachother. sing the sorrow ..... afi. that was our making love music. i remember looking up at the boy i loved, getting as close as physically and emotionally possible.... hearing this music. feeling this way.

all i can remember.
all i can remember.
all i can remember.
all i can remember.
all i can remember.

....i shouldnt hold on. but the memory is burned inside my head. inside my heart. playing over and over like a never ending movie. the images flashing, in color so beautiful, its blinding.

all i can forget.
all i can forget.
all i can forget.
all i can forget.
all i can forget.

its over now. its been over. ....but it once was. dont look back.