i met you a jc penny
walked to the food basket [local store] again tonight. felt like i was walking down the hallway at school. high school. i kinda miss it. not high school, but walking down the hallways. it was that utter alone feeling. that i gotta force myself to be strong feeling.
i remember how self rightous i had to be. i knew they weren't better then me. i knew that everything they cared about didnt matter, but i was in that world, so i didnt know a way to stand up to it.
i want that feeling again though. beth you walk with powerful legs. you look happy. you will not be that typical no friend [i had friends out of school] all alone girl.
i wasnt so bad, ya know. i raised my hand, and said my opinion, even though my face got red, and i was petrified.
i just want to go back, once, but it wouldnt work. id be my older wiser self, and it might send that universe in to a crazier alternate. itd be fun though.
hteb
i remember how self rightous i had to be. i knew they weren't better then me. i knew that everything they cared about didnt matter, but i was in that world, so i didnt know a way to stand up to it.
i want that feeling again though. beth you walk with powerful legs. you look happy. you will not be that typical no friend [i had friends out of school] all alone girl.
i wasnt so bad, ya know. i raised my hand, and said my opinion, even though my face got red, and i was petrified.
i just want to go back, once, but it wouldnt work. id be my older wiser self, and it might send that universe in to a crazier alternate. itd be fun though.
hteb