I AM IN THE TWILIGHT ZONE
ok, I don't even know where to begin. This week has been absolutely, positively insane. I don't mind being there for my friends when they have tough times but I don't appreciate being taken abvantage of or not appreciated. Right now that is how I am feeling. Joey told me to stay out of the whole thing and I should have listened. I told him that I would be a bad friend if I hadn't been there but apparantly he was right. i'll give him this one. He has been really great. Last night he kinda got in a mood but other than that he and I have been doing really well.
I have had a change in friends latley. It is none of my doing, though. The actions of my friends has distanced them from me. Yes, it hurts but if that is what they want then I will support them. It has given me an oppurtunity to become closer with some of my other not so close friends.
Mo and Brent and myself played in the mud today. We were slipping and sliding and mud wrestling. It was fun. Then Chris brought a roll of plastic and we layed it down. We squirted soap on it and used it as a slip and slide. It was alot of fun after I figured out how to do it. I was scared and kept running up and stopping, then just falling over in the mud. Once, I laid down and they grabbed my arms and pulled me through the mud. It was alot of fun. Thanks Brent for being there and keeping me sane.
They are going to start doing radiation as well as chemo on my mom. She has been really sikc and alll her gair fell out. She has a wig now and no one can tell. We found out that she will qualify for full time disability but that will not cover our bills so she is going to do her best to keep working. Soon though, she will not be able to work at all. I don't know what we are gonna do then. Why did this happen to us? My parents are the hardest working most loving and caring people I know. They had so many plans. All of that is gone now.
Ok, I have to keep my sanity. I have to dig my nails into and do everything I can to keep it from slipping away. Everyone else has lost theirs and if I do, we will all be in the nut house.
I have had a change in friends latley. It is none of my doing, though. The actions of my friends has distanced them from me. Yes, it hurts but if that is what they want then I will support them. It has given me an oppurtunity to become closer with some of my other not so close friends.
Mo and Brent and myself played in the mud today. We were slipping and sliding and mud wrestling. It was fun. Then Chris brought a roll of plastic and we layed it down. We squirted soap on it and used it as a slip and slide. It was alot of fun after I figured out how to do it. I was scared and kept running up and stopping, then just falling over in the mud. Once, I laid down and they grabbed my arms and pulled me through the mud. It was alot of fun. Thanks Brent for being there and keeping me sane.
They are going to start doing radiation as well as chemo on my mom. She has been really sikc and alll her gair fell out. She has a wig now and no one can tell. We found out that she will qualify for full time disability but that will not cover our bills so she is going to do her best to keep working. Soon though, she will not be able to work at all. I don't know what we are gonna do then. Why did this happen to us? My parents are the hardest working most loving and caring people I know. They had so many plans. All of that is gone now.
Ok, I have to keep my sanity. I have to dig my nails into and do everything I can to keep it from slipping away. Everyone else has lost theirs and if I do, we will all be in the nut house.