So close yet so far away.
Jess and I got into a knock-down-drag-out last night. It was B-A-D!! We have never fought like that. I was shocked, to tell the truth. She is always so level headed and collected. It was a real role reversal, as Shannon so eloquently put it. I'm usually the one flipping out. Anyway, we got everything settled and got a few things out into the open.
Wow, I felt so shitty last night. Not sick or anything, just shitty about the way that my life is going right now. I feel so out of control. I told myself, at 6 O'clock this morning, that today i was gonna make a plan. When all else fails, make a plan. It always works for me. Actually I usually end up making about 10 plans but still, I always feel better. So, here goes.
My plan is to focus on school. No more love life for me. (this is always a very important part of my plan) I need to keep my grades up so that I can get into grad school. I will not call Brian or Nathan no matter how strong the urge is. That will only make things worse.
I feel better already!!
I have to go home tomorrow. I need to be with my mom right now. We will find out just how much the cancer has spread next week. I am still hoping that they have misdiagnosed and she just has a really fat leg.
Gotta go, here comes Shan with some food from the cafe!!
Wow, I felt so shitty last night. Not sick or anything, just shitty about the way that my life is going right now. I feel so out of control. I told myself, at 6 O'clock this morning, that today i was gonna make a plan. When all else fails, make a plan. It always works for me. Actually I usually end up making about 10 plans but still, I always feel better. So, here goes.
My plan is to focus on school. No more love life for me. (this is always a very important part of my plan) I need to keep my grades up so that I can get into grad school. I will not call Brian or Nathan no matter how strong the urge is. That will only make things worse.
I feel better already!!
I have to go home tomorrow. I need to be with my mom right now. We will find out just how much the cancer has spread next week. I am still hoping that they have misdiagnosed and she just has a really fat leg.
Gotta go, here comes Shan with some food from the cafe!!